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I have poeple alwas telling me that I should open up more and let them, but when i do that they never want to stay and play in my mind. there is 2 side to me that most people do not want to see or hear about. they people see me as a nices guy, but when they get in to my head then the run from me faster then a track star.

they see hell in my mind and the dark thought that run free there. thought of just wal;king up to someone a killing them for no reason.

Just to feed on there blood to see the life slip away from them. Hahahahahah It is thought like this that keep me from find the one that will make me happy. Well I am tell you all that read this it is true, what I say and if you do not like it then fuck off. thee are time people I know what to come in and play but when they want to play they find out that the mind they are trying to play is more wroped, then they could have ever know.

Well now you all know alittle more about me read all and you will see the night insde my mind and get a little taste of how fear it goes into my mind.

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I have so much going on in my life right now, and ever time I get one of the thing done some thing pop up to take it places, I have goten so mad at thing in my live right now that I have made my fists bleed from hitting a wall. I know it does not good to hit thing but the pain help me think sometimes. I get so sick of hearing of everone ealse good know that it make me think there is nothing good out there for me.

Truse me I have done thing to see that I have good thing happen to me I have help people alot of poeple. But that does not help, I have done nothing to see if good thing will come to me and still nothing.

I get money it is gone becouse of bill and thing I have to get done then I am broke agin. My friend are starting to get to me as well, I want to leaft alone sometimes and they will ask me what is wrong with me, and they will never know what is going on in my head.

I guess the only thing I really have is my life and the blood that keep comeing out of my hand from hitting thing.

I have dreams like everone ealse but not all of them are good. I ahve had dreams where I am in hell, and I am being driven nuts. Then when I trun into the best that is inside all of us. When it come out of me I am let lose onto the world. I kill anything and everthing that get in my way. there is nothing that can stop me, and when the madness is gone and I can see what I have done, everone I know and love is dead.

I go mad and start killing agin. trying to dive the pain out of me, trying to find why I did this and trying to send my self back to hell to kill the onces that did this to me.

Then I realze i am the one that did thise to myself, I am my own hell. My own deamons. Then I wake up and I know it is all a dream. But is this a sing to come or is am I reading more into it then what there is, for those how read this wright back and tell me what you think, i will send you am message back thank you for your impute.

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