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Pain is something we live with ever day, I lived with it all my life, It is not a pain of the body but a pain of the mind a soul. A pain that mean know about but will not talk about. the pain of being a live. there are alot of people out there that wish for death. And it come to them in one fast kick.

I do not know when it will come for me but when it does will I fear it. I do not think so, for to fear death you are afired to live. And to live witht he pain that comes with it. So you can look at it like I do take death when it come fast or live and take the pain till death come for you. What will you chose for I have made my mind up about it along time ago.

More to come later.

It is getting close to x-mas, a day that I really dislike, a time when everone is so happy, why are they so happy, I can se the kids beening happy. But all it mean for me is aother year alone, the family thing you ask yes I do it I hang out with my family but it is not the same as it was befor. Everone say they love me and all that, but I still feel like the outcast, it is kinds of like the love is gone. Yes I know they still love me, but it does not feel like it to me.

I do not know maybe it is me, I prob will never know. well that is all I ahve time for more to come later

To all those, that know me or do not know me, I got hurt at work, my arm got pulled into a muchine that flatens bag, I still have my arm adn now I have some really grove painkillers as well. My arm has soem tissue damge but some pulled msucles but hay I am healing really fast. So please keep your mind on work and do not let the vistion, take your mind off the machines