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I don't mean to sound like I'm going through teenage angst again, I really don't.. but isn't that always how these things go.



Well alright I'm 21, that should be old enough to try to class this up a little and still get in all out, yea?



At the end of the day I come home and I realize that I'm still alone. The dogs just want to be taken care of, my partner just wants well--that's a long story-- so let's pass it, and all my family, my real family, want to live their apple pie lives and pretend they don't know what they know and need what they need.



The whole thing just fills me with a panging emptiness, a burning rage, and the feeling that I'll never pull this off alone and maybe I shouldn't be trying anymore. But, what can I do? I avoid my responsibilities and what I need to get done, I drown myself in happiness... and I think I should walk on--always thinking. But, the thing is not yet written and the team not yet gathered and so... I must be doing something wrong. The question is, how do I fix my own mistakes alone if I don't know what they are?

I realized after adding a few sections of lyrics to my profile that it may consume far too much space for me to continue the project long term. Instead, I have decided to use this entry and edit to add bits as I feel the need to record them. I hope some may inspire you as they have me.