Tonight has got to be the worst night of my life.
And Im not going to make it through it
I ruined everything
Ive lost everyone I care about
Tonight Im thinking about ending it
I have everything I need to do so
And there isnt anyone to stop me
Not like anyone would
I cant stand it anymore
I cant be with the one I love
My parents hate me
They have taken away my friends
my future
This is why I said Im going nowhere Brad
because after tonight
Ill have no where to go
If your reading this
it means that I never
said the things that
needed to be said
Im sorry that things went sour
I dont know what I did
that made you change your mind
about loving me
For a moment in time
I was all you wanted
and then the next
I wasnt
And it hurt
more than words
could say
I forgave you
after everything you did
because I loved you
and I still love you
But I know that I cant have you
And that you dont want me
I hope you were happy
in the four months that
we were together
If you werent Im sorry
I did everything I could
to make you happy
I gave everything
that I had
and more
to you
and I dont regret a moment of it
What I do regret
is saying ok
when you told me it was over
I should have fought for you
but I didnt have the strength
maybe if I had
I would still have you
But I cannot dwell on it
it hurts me to bad
I just want you to know
that there is always a place in my heart
for you and you only
and no one will be able to fill it
and when I do get to New York
there will be a place for you to stay
Im leaving Slater so that I can get over you
And I thought that josh would help me
but whenever I am with him
and everytime he holds me
all I can think of is you
is that bad?
I dont know
Good luck with Lara
I love you
I have decided that I am giving up
on everything
everyone thinks im happy
but I am just hiding
I cant take the pain anymore
and hurting myself
doesnt help
as much as it has in the past
Im leaving here
because I cant take it
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