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halloween

18:30 Oct 31 2006
Times Read: 588




Happy Halloween

to anyone who

reads this entry!

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02:11 Oct 31 2006
Times Read: 589




Tear drops fell from the sky as God wept at the sight of what he created. His little humans and their toys were destroying the world God made for them. One by one the helpless animals were slaughtered off this once stunning planet. Filled with greed and envy, they sold everything to one another for all the useless riches. Too much greed caused them to murder each other without a single mark of remorse for their sins. This happened once before and God tried to correct what he had down by the flowing floods. All was right, but man had decided to rebel once more against his word.

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I want to cry

04:07 Oct 26 2006
Times Read: 592






I want to cry.

No, I'm not sad.

Actually, I'm quite happy.

I love Zak so much

And he loves me back.



I want to cry.

I found a song that made me think of him.

It's a really great song by Flyleaf.

Here's one of the lyrics,

"I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing"



I want to cry.

Even Zak has a song that reminds him of me.

It's by Slipknot.

Here's one of the lyrics,

"She is everything to me

The unrequited dream "



I want to cry.

Wishing he was here right now.

To feel his skin against mine.

To hear his comforting voice.

To see his deep brown eyes.



I want to cry.

I miss my boyfriend.

I miss my love.

I'll see him tomorrow.

It seems like forever...



I want to cry.

I can't stop thinking of him.

He is the answer to my prayers.

My unbelievable dream come true.

He loves me.

He's perfect for me.



I'm crying.

I can't help it.

I love this song.

I love him so much.

I miss him terribly.

He was just here,

But i want him back now.



I'm crying.

I don't care what you think.

I'm crying.

I miss my Zak and i need him.

I'm crying.

Shutup!

Don't make fun...



I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying



I want my boyfriend here with menow...

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21:04 Oct 20 2006
Times Read: 600


Name :Kelsey
Birthdate :December 19 (cold)
Birthplace :Earth! I'n not an alien, even though i look funny lol
Current Location :in my chair!
Eye Color :brown
Hair Color :Dark brown, sometimes almost black
Height :5'5" i'm short so shut up
Height :Its not polite to ask a "lady" her weight
Piercings :nope
Tatoos :in the future hopefully
Boyfriend/Girlfriend :YES, and he's a hott haha
Boyfriend/Girlfriend :It's red and nicknamed Rosy
Overused Phraze :"I Know" "I'm fine" (always a lie)
FAVORITES
Food :Pizza! yum
Food :....idk.... Sonic?
Candy :kit kat!
Number :9
Color :midnight blue
Animal :Penguin! hehe
Drink :dr.pepper
Body Part on Opposite sex :arms
Body Part on Opposite sex :idk
Body Part on Opposite sex :Mad Mad House (i miss you Don!!!)
Body Part on Opposite sex :HolyWood
Body Part on Opposite sex :MirrorMask
Body Part on Opposite sex :Robin williams (sry Johnny, ur my 2nd)
This or That
Pepsi or Coke :coke
McDonalds or BurgerKing :mcdonalds
Chocolate or Vanillavanilla
Hot Chocolate or Coffee :hot chocolate (sounds good right now)
Kiss or Hug :hug
Dog or Cat :dog
Rap or Punk :punk
Summer or Winter :winter
Scary Movies or Funny Movies :scary movies
Love or Money :love
YOUR...
Bedtime :11pm
Most Missed Memory :playing with shannon without a care or worry
Best phyiscal feature :eyes?
First Thought Waking Up :if i'll see zak today
Ambition :idk
Best Friends :shannon, zak, fred
Weakness :i'm not sure
Fears :losing zak, pitch black, being in heaven without zak
Longest relationship :little over four months
HAVE YOU...
Cheated Your Partner :No
Ever been beaten up :Kinda
Ever beaten someone up :yeah *thinks of paige, and kendra, and brittany, and jessica*
Ever Shoplifted :yes sadly
Ever Skinny Dipped :hahahahaha yeah
Ever Kissed Opposite sex :yes
Been Dumped Lately :no thank goodness
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color :brown
Favorite Hair Color :black
Short or Long :long!!!!!
Height :taller then me
Style :goth/emo/rocker/grungy haha
Looks or Personality :personality
Hot or Cutehot
Muscular or Really Skinny :muscular
RANDOMS
What country do you want to Visit :Italy
How do you want to Die :being high/stoned
Been to the Mall Lately :nope
Get along with your Parents :in a way
Health Freak :not really no
Do you think your Attractive :depends on my mood
Believe in Yourself :not really
Want to go to College :not really
Do you Smoke :not really
Do you Drink :not really
Shower Daily :yes really! lol
Been in Love :Yes
Do you Sing :not really lol only if i'm alone
Want to get Married :doesn't matter
Do you want Children :yeah
Age you wanna lose your Virginity :hehe...hm.....idc lol
Hate anyone :YES!!!!!

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MY choice

20:52 Oct 20 2006
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If I decide I want to die, it's my choice. Try as you might, I'll do it if I want. Taking my life is not about anyone else. No, I won't stop just because you love me. I'm not saying that I hate you and don't care, but you have no say in this matter! Wine and bitch all you want, I find it amusing. Threaten to take away our friendship if I don't stop hurting myself or thinking about suicide, then I will continue to do so. Complaining makes it worse, don't you see?! Talking about it is so annoying when it's spoken to someone who would never understand. I will not attempt to explain, because you'll never get it, but only because you refuse to see it as I do. I'm not like everyone else. I think differently and feel differently. I'm not the same as you. So shut the fuck up.

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Smoking?

01:17 Oct 16 2006
Times Read: 606


Okay, i don't smoke.

...thats a lie.



Um, i don't smoke often.

thats good



well zak smokes right?

yup



i was spending time with him over at freds house.

ofcourse



and we were kissing

duh



i get home and something smells funny.

??



I smell my own breath and it smells like cigerettes! lol

kinda gross...



I think its funny as Hell right now


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Me

23:44 Oct 15 2006
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I feel like that right now lol

How about you?

Ever feel like that's YOU ???

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FlyLeaf Lyrics

19:23 Oct 14 2006
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"I'm So Sick"



I will break into your thoughts

With what's written on my heart

I will break, break



I'm so sick,

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss,

Selfishness

I'm so sick

I'm so sick



If you want more of this

We can push out, sell out, die out

So you'll shut up

And stay sleeping

With my screaming in your itching ears



I'm so sick,

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss,

Selfishness

I'm so sick

I'm so sick



Hear it, I'm screaming it

You're heeding to it now



Hear it! I'm screaming it!

You tremble at this sound



You sink into my clothes

And this invasion

Makes me feel

Worthless, hopeless, sick



I'm so sick,

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss,

Selfishness

I'm so sick

I'm so sick



I'm so sick

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss, selfishness

I'm so

I'm so sick

I'm so

I'm so sick





"Fully Alive"



Telling Layla's story spoken

'Bout how all her bones are broken

Hammers fall on all the pieces

Two months in the cover creases



Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive and she knows

I don't believe in futures



All my complaints shrink to nothing

I'm ashamed of all my somethings

She's glad for one day of comfort

Only because she has suffered



Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive and she knows

I don't believe in futures



Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive and she knows

I don't believe in futures



Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive and she knows

I don't believe in futures









"Perfect"



Sick of circling the same road

Sick of bearing the guilt

So open the windows to cool off

And heat pours in instead



Perfect in weakness

I'm only perfect in just your strength alone



All my efforts to clean me

Leave me putrid and filthy

And how can you look at me

When I can't stand myself



I'm tired to be honest

I'm nobody



Perfect in weakness

I'm only perfect in just your strength alone



Perfect in weakness

I'm only running in just your strength alone



I tried to kill you

You tried to save me



You save me

You save me

You save me

You save me



Perfect in weakness

I'm only perfect in just your strength alone



Perfect in weakness

I'm only running in just your strength alone









"Cassie"



The question asked in order

To save her life or take it

The answer no to avoid death

The answer yes would make it

Make it



Do you believe in God

Written on the bullet

Say yes to pull the trigger

Do you believe in God

Written on the bullet

And Cassie pulled the trigger



All heads are bowed in silence

To remember her last sentence

She answered him knowing what would happen

Her last words still hanging in the air

In the air



Do you believe in God

Written on the bullet

Say yes to pull the trigger

Do you believe in God

Written on the bullet

And Cassie pulled the trigger



How many will die

I will die

I, I will say yes



Do you believe in God

Written on the bullet

Say yes to pull the trigger

Do you believe in God

Written on the bullet

And Cassie pulled the trigger



(Do you believe)

Do you believe in God (Do you believe)

Do you believe in God (Do you believe)

Do you believe in God

And I will pull the trigger





"Sorrow"



Sometimes life seems too quiet

Into paralyzing silence

Like the moonless dark

Meant to make me strong



Familiar breath of my old lies

Changed the color in my eyes

Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by



Sorrow lasts through this night

I'll take this piece of you

And hold for all eternity

For just one second I felt whole

As you flew right through me



Left alone with only reflections of the memory

To first the ugly girl that's smothering me

Sitting closer than my pain

He knew each tear before it came

Soon He will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by



Sorrow last through this night

I'll take this piece of You

And hold for all eternity

For just one second I felt whole

As You flew right through me



And we kiss each other one more time

And sing this lie that's halfway mine

The sword is slicing through the question

So I won't be fooled by his angel light



Sorrow lasts through this night

I'll take this piece of you

And hold for all eternity

For just one second I felt whole

As you flew right through me

And up into the stars



Joy will come







"I'm Sorry"



I'm sorry

I don't mean to remember

It's true that I dream less often

I'm not ashamed

Of that long December

Your hand's coming down again



I close my eyes and brace myself

I only noticed your face

No matter what you're gonna build my shell

No matter what you're gonna build my shell



I'm falling (falling)

I'm shedding my skin (my skin)

But it's not time I'm told

I am aware (am aware)

Of what you mean by then

I'm only ten years old



Close my eyes and brace myself

Only noticed your face

No matter what you're gonna build my shell

No matter what you're gonna build my shell



My scars are yours today

This story ends so good

I love you and I understand

That you stood where I stood



Close my eyes and brace myself

I only noticed your face

No matter what you're gonna break my shell

No matter what you're gonna break my shell



I'm done healing

I'm done healing









"All Around Me"



My hands are searching for you

My arms are outstretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips

My tongue dances behind my lips for you



This fire rising through my being

Burning I'm not used to seeing you



I'm alive, I'm alive



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing



My hands float up above me

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade

Into our secret place



The music makes me sway

The angels singing say we are alone with you

I am alone and they are too with you



I'm alive, I'm alive



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing



And so I cry

The light is white

And I see you



I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing



Take my hand

I give it to you

Now you owe me

All I am

You said you would never leave me

I believe you

I believe



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healed







"Red Sam"



Here I stand

Empty hands

Wishing my wrists were bleeding

To stop the pain from the beatings



There you stood

Holding me

Waiting for me to notice you



But who are you

You are the truth (you are the truth)

Outscreaming these lies

You are the truth (you are the truth)

Saving my life



The warmth of your embrace

Melts my frostbitten spirit

You speak the truth and I hear it

The words are I love you

And I have to believe in you



But who are you

You are the truth (you are the truth)

Outscreaming these lies

You are the truth (you are the truth)

Saving my life



My hands are open

And you are filling them

Hands in the air

In the air, in the air, in the air



And I worship

And I worship

And I worship

And I worship



You are the truth (you are the truth)

Outscreaming these lies

You are the truth (you are the truth)

Saving my life







"There For You"



Sometimes I'm selfish fake

You're always a true friend

And I don't deserve you

'Cause I'm not there for you

Please forgive me again



I wanna be there for you

Someone you can come to

Runs deeper than my bones

I wanna be there for you

I wanna be there for you



Swirling shades of blue

Slow dancing in your eyes

Sun kisses the earth

And I hush my urge to cry, cry



I wanna be there for you

Someone you can come to

Runs deeper than my bones

I wanna be there for you

I wanna be there for you



'Cause I hear the whispered words

In your masterpiece beautiful

You speak the unspeakable through

I love you too



I wanna be there for you

Someone you can come to



I wanna be there for you

And be someone you can come to

The love runs deeper than my bones

I wanna be there for you









"Breathe Today"



You can only move as fast as,

Who's in front of you,

And if you assume,

Just like them,

What good will it do,

So find out for yourself

So your ignorance,

Will stop bleeding through.



You can breathe today



So many lies swirling,

All around you,

You're suffocating,

The empty shape in you,

Steals your breath,

You're suffocating.



Logic forces me to believe in this,

And I have learned to see,

And I can only say what I've seen and heard,

And only you can choose,

And every choice you make will effect you,

Search your own self.



You can breathe today



[x2]

So many lies swirling,

All around you,

You're suffocating,

The empty shape in you,

Steals your breath,

You're suffocating.



Breathe!!!



Big enough to fill the void that's inside of you,

It's just a breath away.



[x2]

So many lies swirling,

All around you,

You're suffocating,

The empty shape in you,

Steals your breath,

You're suffocating.



So many lies swirling,

All around you,

You're suffocating,

The empty shape in you,

Steals your breath (breath!),



So many lies swirling,

All around you (breath!),

You're suffocating,

The empty shape in you,



Breathe today.









"So I Thought"



All your twisted thoughts free flow

To everlasting memories

Show soul

Kiss the stars with me

And dread the wait for

Stupid calls returning us to life

We say to those who are in love

It can't be true 'cause we're too young

I know that's true because

so long I was

So in love with you

So I thought



A year goes by

And I can't talk about it



On my knees

Dim lighted room

Thoughts free flow try to consume

Myself in this

I'm not faithless

Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose

Ignorance is bliss cherish it

Pretty neighborhoods

You learn to much to hold

Believe it not

And fight the tears

With pretty smiles and lies

About the times



A year goes by

And I can't talk about it



The times weren't right

And I couldn't talk about it



Chorus Romance says goodnight

Close your eyes and I'll close mine

Remember you, remember me

Hurt the first, the last, between

Chorus Romance says goodnight

Close your eyes and I'll close mine

Remember you, remember me

Hurt the first, the last, between



And I'm praying that we will see

Something there in between

Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

So we can talk about it



[guitar solo]



Chorus Romance says goodnight

Close your eyes and I'll close mine

Remember you, remember me

Hurt the first, the last, between

Chorus Romance says goodnight

Close your eyes and I'll close mine

Remember you, remember me

Hurt the first, the last, healing



And I'm praying that we will see

Something there in between

Then and there that exceeds all we can dream



And all these twisted thoughts I see

Jesus there in between

And all these twisted thoughts I see

Jesus there in between







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Quiz and this one's more then true

05:24 Oct 11 2006
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What Evanescence song are you?[many outcomes + wonderful pictures]





Your Evanescence song is: Give Unto MeA person you care deeply about is in mental pain. You don't really understand why, but somehow helping him/her means more to you than if you was the one in pain. You want to make them feel better but don't really know what to do. This person you care about probably isolates himself and that makes you hurt inside.Place onto me your burdenI'll drink your deadly poisonTake this quiz!













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"Gets Me Through"

04:18 Oct 11 2006
Times Read: 623


I find that I can relate to this song and it's my favorite Ozzy song.





1. Gets Me Through



I'm not the kind of person you think I am

I'm not the anti-Christ or the iron man

I have a vision that I just can't control

I feel I've lost my spirit and sold my soul

Got no control



I try to entertain you the best I can

I wish I'd started walking before I ran

But I still love the feeling I get from you

I hope you'll never stop cause it gets me through yeah

It gets me through yeah



The feelings that I hide behind

Sometimes reality's unkind

The nightmares stalk for me at night

I dread the long and lonely nights



I'm not the kind of person you think I am

I'm not the anti-Christ or the iron man

But I still love the feeling I get from you

I hope you'll never stop cause it gets me through yeah



I'm just trying live yeah

I'm just trying live yeah

I'm just trying live yeah

I'm just trying live yeah

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survey

05:48 Oct 09 2006
Times Read: 626


TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Kelsey
Birthday:12/19
Birthplace:earth
Current Location:bedroom
Eye Color:brown
Hair Color:brown
Height:5'5"
Right Handed or Left Handed:right
Your Heritage:native american
The Shoes You Wore Today:sandels
Your Weakness:... my dog?
Your Fears:losing Zak
Your Perfect Pizza:extra cheese, pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:graduate
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:how are you?
Thoughts First Waking Up:i hope i see zak
Your Best Physical Feature:eyes
Your Bedtime:11 pm
Your Most Missed Memory:kentucky with shannon
Pepsi or Coke:coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:macdonalds
Single or Group Dates:idk
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:idc
Chocolate or Vanilla:vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:cappuccino
Do you Smoke:rarely
Do you Swear:very often
Do you Sing:in private
Do you Shower Daily:yeah
Have you Been in Love:yes
Do you want to go to College:not really
Do you want to get Married:doesnt matter all that much
Do you belive in yourself:no
Do you get Motion Sickness:sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:sure, why not
Are you a Health Freak:no
Do you get along with your Parents:depends
Do you like Thunderstorms:not really
Do you play an Instrument:nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yes
In the past month have you Smoked:no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:does a dance count?
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:no
In the past month have you been on Stage:no
In the past month have you been Dumped:no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:no
Ever been Drunk:yes
Ever been called a Tease:yes
Ever been Beaten up:almost
Ever Shoplifted:yes sadly
How do you want to Die:i want to die stoned
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:be happy
What country would you most like to Visit:europe
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:brown
Favourite Hair Color:black
Short or Long Hair:long!!!
Height:taller then me
Weight:idk
Best Clothing Style:grungy/slacker or goth
Number of Drugs I have taken:none
Number of CDs I own:alot
Number of Piercings:none
Number of Tattoos:none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:stealing

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Survey

05:19 Oct 09 2006
Times Read: 627




130 Random Questions
When was the last time you cried?:last month?
Have you ever faked sick?:yes
What was the last lie you said?:idk
Have you ever cried during a movie?:yes
Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?:Zak
Have you ever danced in the rain?:yeah
Have you ever been drunk?:yeah
Have you ever tried tried drugs?:nope
Do you smoke?:rarely
What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare?:kissing
What is your full name?:Kelsey ________
What is your blood-type?:idk
Have you ever been in a car accident?:no..
How old were you when you recieved your first kiss?:14
Who was your first kiss?:zak
Have you ever had an online relationship?:yeah
Have you ever had phone-sex?:nope
Have you ever been rejected by a crush?:yup
What is your favourite sport to play?:none
Have you ever made a prank phone call?:yup
Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it?:yup (not to you zak dont worry!)
What's your favourite childhood memory?:creek, shannon, great horned reaper lol
Is there anything that you have done that you regret?:yes
What do you want to be when you grow up?:be happy
What is your political persuassion?:idk
Have you ever had cybersex?:yes
Do you believe in g-d?:god? yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?:yes
Do you believe in karma?:sure
Who was your first crush?:daniel bradshaw
Who do yo uhave a crush on?:Zak
How would you describe yourself?:shy
What are you afraid of?:losing zak
Are you religious?:no
What does your screen name mean?:i'm not sure
What person do you trust the most?:Zak
Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend?:Bobby
What is the best compliment you have ever recieved?:my eyes are pretty
What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you?:i'm a loser/freak/lezbo
What is the longest crush/relationship you have had?:4months
What is your greatest strength?:hope
What is your greatest weakness?:self esteem
What is your perfect pizza?:extra cheese and peppoeroni
What is your first thought when waking up in the morning?:i'm cold
What is your first thought before you go to bed?:protect zak, amen
What college do you want to go to?:idc
Do you get along with your family?:with my cousin and sister, and brother in law
Do you play any instruments?:nope
What kind of music do you like?:loud and fast
Do you think you're attractive?:kinda, but not really
Would you ever get a tattoo?:yeah
How many piercings do you have?:none
Who makes you laugh?:zak acting a goofball
Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours?:zak, haha
Have you ever seen a dead body?:yes
Do you have a celebrity crush?:yeah
What is one thing scientists should invent?:idk
Have you ever broken a bone?:yeah
What happens after you die?:i die inside forever
Do you watch or read the news?:not really
What stereotype would you label yourself as being?:emo if given the correct clothes lol
Would your friends agree with that stereotypic label?:they would say goth
If yo ucould change your name, what would you change it to?:Ilene?
If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go:a couple months ago
If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change?:my body
Have you ever gone skinny dipping?:yeah
Have you ever played strip poker?:no
Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves?:yeah
What do you want your friends to think about you?:that i'm the greatest lol
Whats the biggest argument you've ever gotten into?:i cant remember
HAve you ever bitten someone?:yes
When's your birthday?:12/19
Have you ever stolen anything?:yeah
Do you make wishes on shooting stars?:yup
Whats the most you've ever eaten in one sitting?:idk
If you could go back and change one day, what would it be?:when i first began stareing at Matt, tell myself to knock it the fuck off before its too late
Do you remember your dreams?:most of the time
Have you ever been in love?:yes
Are you a morning person or a night person?:Night baby!
Do you have any phobias?:maybe...
What's the meanest thing you've ever done to someone?:idk and idc
Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth?:yeah, duh
How many screen names do you have?:3-4?
Do any medical problems run in your family?:no?
Have anyone ever been disowned from your family?:i dont think so
Have you ever had a nightmare?:yes, no shit sherlock
Do you say meaner things to your friends or your enemies?:friends
Would you ever participate in a threesome?:no
Would you ever pay for a prostititue?:nope
Have you ever mooned or flashed someone?:nope
Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf?:No
Have you ever laughed so hard you peed in your pants?:no
Have you ever written a love letter?:yeah
Have you ever attempted suicide?:yeah
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?:um... boxers?
Have you ever been in a fistfight?:yeah
Do you have any hidden talents?:maybe
What is one thing you want me to know about you?:gay guys are hott
What is one question you wouldn't want me to ask?:Have you kissed a girl?
Do you usually prefer books or movies?:books, usually
Who is your favourite person to talk to?:Zak
Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad?:Zak
Would you ever have sex before marriage?:sure
Who do you talk to most on the phone?:kendra
Do you have a secret that yo'ure ashamed of?:yeah
Do you prefer british or american spelling of words?:american?
Have you ever gotten detention?:yeah
How do you vent your anger?:yelling, throwing shit, beating my front door
Have you ever been on a diet?:no
Would you ever date someone younger than you? Older than you?:sure
Is your best friend a virgin?:yeah
What's a rumor someone has spread about you?:i'm bi, which is a lie
What's the kinkiest thing you could ever actually see yourself as doing?:hand cuffs
What's the meanest thing anyone has ever done to you?:pretended to be someone else and ridicule me
What's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?:give me new moon
Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental illness?:no
Have you ever cut yourself on purpose?:yes
Have you ever wanted to murder someone?:yes
Have you ever hated someone?:yes
Do you prefer talking on the phone or online?:online
Do you consider yourself popular?:nope
Would you ever tell the person you have a crush on that you like them?:no...
Have you ever had a crush on an enemy?:nope
Have you ever had a crush on a best friend?:yup
What is your favourite book?:twilight
Do you have a collection of anything?:no
Are you happy with the person you are becoming?:kinda
Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago?:yes
What do you see yourself as being in 5 years from now?:idk
Are you happy with the life you have?:to a point yes
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Dreaming

02:04 Oct 09 2006
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I was spending the night with Kendra and Brieanne last night after the dance. While I was sleeping I dreamt about Zak (of course) and he was still in his outfit he wore to the dance. I think we were still at the dance at school, because other then that I can't remember what happened. BUT the thing is that while I was dreaming Brieanne said I spoke out loud. Here's what I said, "... love.... Zak.... awww..." lol Yeah, thats what I said in my sleep. I think it's embarressing, yet really cool. You know what I mean? *smiles*

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Dance, Dance

21:40 Oct 08 2006
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I went to the Homecoming dance last night with my friends. It was pretty much the same as all the other dances, except I slow danced with Zak. I know- wow...

Well, I'm glad I went because I was able to sorta hang out with Zak and stuff. *smiles* They played "Tainted Love" by Marilyn Manson so I was thrilled about that whether or not I showed it. The only dance I did was with Zak and the Cha Cha lol

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Wow

03:02 Oct 03 2006
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This Wednesday will be me and Zaks 4 month anniversy. Don't worry, i dont expect anything, I'm just saying. I just haven't thought about it in a while. *smiles*


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mistake

01:24 Oct 03 2006
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^That's how I feel most of the time^

People ridicule me for their own pleasure.

My mother compares me to my sister and sometimes accidently calls me Heather.

She yells at me alot and admitted she's beginning to not know me.

My father becomes angered too easily and yells and insults. He says I'll turn out like my mother...

Heather and Brian "think" they know me, but since they've moved they don't really. Not anymore.

They say my sister went through worse. Well guess what!!! I"M NOT HER!!!! ok?!

We are two different people, we even have different fathers. I don't handle stress very well.

They won't let me do what i need to, so I may calm down. No, i'm not speaking of cutting. Just simple things like hand movements that have a calming effect sometimes or pacing. It's bullshit.

I don't like my parents touching me in anyway. It makes me uncomfortable in more then one way. Especially when my mother tries to prove that she is allowed to see me nude. I hate my parents....



There's other stuff, but I'm stopping here for now.

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oh my

01:14 Oct 03 2006
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I'm never going there ^



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Nature Sex^



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Hmmm.... and what might these look like I wonder...? ^



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Kinky teddy's??? What has the stuffed animal world come to?! ^

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Halloween

01:07 Oct 03 2006
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For Halloween I want to wear a masquerade dress. It would be so beautiful and I've fallen for the costumes and masks. (hence my avatar with the mask)



I'm sure a lot of women on here would agree with me that attending a masquerade ball would be like a dream.

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survey

23:38 Oct 02 2006
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Two of each.



Two Names You Go By:

Kels and Mistress



Two things you are wearing right now:

Bra, shirt



Two Places You Want to go on Vacation:

Europe, Alaska



Two Things You Are Thinking About Now:

Zak, Dancing…



Two Reasons you're doing this survey:

I’m bored, why not?



Spell your name without vowels:

Klsy



How many pairs of jeans do you own?:

3-4



What color(s) do you wear most often?:

Black



What's for dinner tonight?:

idk



Are you happy with your life right now?:

Its way better now, so yeah



Do you own a:



PS2: Yes.



XBOX: No.



PSP: No.



Gamecube: No.



Digital Camera: No



Do you shop at stores like Aeropostale and American Eagle?: No.



How do you make money?: Asking for it



Last thing you bought?: French fries



How's the weather?: warm



Do you own big sunglasses?: No



What should you be doing right now?: homework



Who did you hug today?: No One.



How many beds did you lay in yesterday?: One.



What color shirt are you wearing?: tan



Name one thing that you do everyday?: listen to music



What color are your bedroom walls?: blue



How much cash do you have on you right now?: $5



What's your favorite sport?: none



Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?: yesterday



Q: What did you have for dinner last night?: pizza, ice cream, nasty frozen dinner



Q: Look to your left, what do you see?: CD case



Q: Do you have plants in your room?: not now



Q:Whats your favorite starbucks drink?: idk



Q: Recent time you were really upset?: today, 6th period



Best, Worst, Last, First, Today, Tomorrow, Favorites, and Currently:



B e s t

1. Male friend: Brian

2. Female friend: Shannon

3. Vacation: Kentucky

4. Age: 13 (I met zak)

5. Memory: zak kissed me



W o r s t

1. Time of day: Morning.

2. Day of the week: Monday.

3. Food: onions

4. Memory: mom + dad+ bed= gross



L a s t

1. Person you saw: bre

2. Talked to on the phone: Heather

3. Text: kendra?

4. IM: chris



T o d a y

1. What are you doing now: this

2. Wearing: undies, bra, shorts, tan top

3. Better than yesterday: …. no



T o m o r r o w

1. Is: the future

2. Got any plans: sleep

3. Goal: no depression!!!

4. Dislikes about tomorrow: I’ll tell you later

5. Likes about tomorrow: who knows what’s going to happen



F a v o r i t e

1. Number: 9

2. Song: right now its “Waking Up”

4. Season: Winter

5. State: …. Alaska? (beautiful)



C u r r e n t l y

1. Missing someone: Yes (Shannon).

2. Mood: shitty (I’m tired/hungry/lonely)

3. Wanting: Cuddles & sleep.





8 lasts:



8.] last cigarette: a month ago?

7.] last beverage: water

6.] last movie watched: alice in wonderland?

5.] last phone call: sister

4.] last cd played: flyleaf

3.] last BUBBLE bath: two or three months ago

2.] last time you cried: I’m not sure

1.] last alchaholic beverage: Bacardi!!!



7 have you evers:



7.] have you ever dated someone twice: um…. sorta

6.] have you ever been cheated on: Yes

5.] have you ever kissed someone: Yes.

4.] have you ever been kissed by someone: Yes

3.] have you ever lost someone: Yes.

2.] have you ever been depressed: Yes.

1.] have you ever been drunk and thrown up: Nope.





6 things you've done today



1.] Took a shower

2.] drank water

3.] sat with zak

4.] listened to music

5.] almost fell asleep in science

6.] thought about revenge



5 people you can tell pretty much anything to --

in no specific order



1.] Zak

2.] Shannon

3.] Misha

4.] Jayme

5.] Matt



3 favorite colors --



1.] Blue

2.] Black

3.] Green



2 things you want to do before you die --



1.] Have sex lol

2.] see Marilyn Manson in person!!!



So Far in '06 I have:



[ ]graduated

[x] made many new friends

[ ] fallen out of love

[x] done something you swore never to do

[x] laughed until you cried

[x] stole something

[x] went behind your parents back

[ ] cried over an ex

[X] disappointed someone close

[x] hidden a secret

[x] pretended to be happy

[?] got arrested

[ ] kept your new years resolution

[x] forgot your new years resolution

[ ] met someone who changed your life

[x] changed your outlook on life

[x] sat home all day doing nothing

[x] pretended to be sick

[ ] left the province

[X] almost died

[x] drank

[x] lost someone (death)

[ ] been to the hospital

[x] gotten close to someone

[ ] streaked

[x] cried over someone

[ ] broken up with a gf or bf

[x] given up something important to you

[x] talked on the phone all night

[x] learned something new about yourself

[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try

[x] found out who your true friends were

[x] made a total fool of yourself

[ ] met great people

[x] gotten really drunk







Q 01: is there a person who is on your mind right now?

A 01: Yes.



Q 02: Where is the last place you went?

A 02: Living Room



Q 03: who is the last person who called you?

A 03: Heather



Q 05: do you have any siblings?

A 05: yeah, 4



Q 06: do you smile often?

A 06: kind of not really



Q 07: do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?

A 07: yeah



Q 08: do you wish on stars?

A 08: yes



Q 09: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?

A 09: no



Q 11: do you like your handwriting?

A 11: nope!



Q 12: are you a friendly person?

A 12: I guess so



Q 13: who's bed did you sleep in last night?

A 13: mine sadly



Q 14: what color shirt are you wearing?

A 14: tan



Q 15: do you have any pets?

A 15: yeah



Q 16: what is the color of your bedsheets?

A 16: tye dye right now



Q 17: What were you doing at 9 last night?

A 17: watching tv



Q 18: I can't wait until..

A 18: I see zak or hang out with friends



Q 19: Look to your right. What's there?

A 19: a pic of Shannon and my dog



1. Are you currently mad at someone?:

yes



2. Which of your friends has the worst temper?:

fred



3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?:

yeah



4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?:

um… no



5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream?

Yell and scream, but I keep silent



1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party?:

nope



2. Are you easily excited?

sometimes



3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?:

Friday?



4. Which of your friends gets you the most excitable?:

amanda



6. If you could have anything right now what would it be?:

a kiss





1. Name?

Kelsey



2. Where were you born?:

Earth



3. What's your main goal in life?:

Don’t commit suicide



4. Do you want to have children?

Yeah, sure



5. How do you want to die?

Slit my wrist, oh did I say that outloud? *clears throat* um… I want to die high lol



1. Sex before marriage?:

yeah



2. Gay Marriage?:

Yeah



3. Lowering the drinking age?:

…. sure



5. Abortion?:

NO



6. Recycling?

Yes



1. What was your latest dream?

Something about Zak and something fancy I think… *shrugs*



2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most?

Zak



3. Have any of your dreams come true?

Not that I know of, they might have…



4. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had?

Museum of dinosaurs lol funny as hell



5. Do you usually remember your dreams?

I try



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