POISON
You sit by and watch
Saying things like "She's getting better now"
"She seems to smile more"
You're so blind by what you want to see
You could never see me
I played the part and took the blame
While you pretended it was all okay
Light turned black as you would sleep
Ignorance is bliss
But the cuts are getting deeper now
The blood makes it all feel real
The signs are there if you'd just notice me
But you chose to pretend it's okay
Each day that passes thins my sanity
I cannot talk I don't know how
I can't tell you what is wrong
I can't find words, they are lost to me
You look past my eyes, you cannot see my soul
You see the pretty smile and not it's transparency
You are blind to the decay that lies beneath
Rotting more each day
I am not pretty, stop calling me beautiful
If you could only see the ugliness
The truth that I see
You would run and hide
Knowing that I am only a poison
Take another breath to find a distant sanity
And turn the pain into truth
Walking through a life decayed
While you're repeating your mistakes
There's another chance to believe in faith
And stop depending on me
I need a crutch to walk on
A hand to help me stand
I am collapsing under the weight
Of carrying you
Innocence and ignorance
They both go hand in hand
But I am always honest with you
So I hope you understand
I know that I am wrong
As I have often been
But I hope that you still see
The love that has no end
I know I’m nothing special
Nothing that’s unique
An introverted shell of darkness
Not much that I can fake
I have devoted my soul to you
But I feel your heart has changed
And before I start to drift
And can’t speak the words again
Tie me to this tree and then
Turn around and go home
So you can let me die for you
And I can die alone
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