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cold fills the air im alone in this world my mother has disaperd be for my very eyes and the ones i care for seem to turn upon me almost dayly i guess this is my life fragle and weak i dont know why i wish i did but wishing never eally got any thing very far now did it i would like to disaper for a wile and clear my mind and memorys compleatly and start over but i cant really just leave that would only cause more pain then good i think, in fact im sure of it but why i dont think i will ever know. im really better off on my own i fill so much pain and anger deep with in my self and i fear i will soon lash out or at least eventualy i will and i dont wont to hurt any one intentionaly at all. i seem to think of death as of late ore oftan then aany thing else, i know it may seem wierd but it doesnt frightan me in the least but it doesnt make me any happier ether. i guess i am confused and a bit disturbed in my thoughts. medicen wont cure the problems i need to find whats missing in my life and i dont quite know what that is at the moment, i dont know if i ever will i hope i find it so i can once again be happy. if there is a "god" then how can this be that i feel this way?

I wouldnt worry or think about any one or fall in love at such a young age.It isnt the last thing in the world.And plus there are plenty of more gilrs out there. helpfull advice dont depend on anyone but yourself and dont trust no one





Jennifer