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Hello my name is Darrell im going to take you all on a little ride threw my mind. Well im told im such a bright young man yet i feel like a falure and you may ask "why this is so?" I feel so alone in this world and even though i have friends i dont spend much time with them. I live on a farm, and have now for about the past 8 years i havent really enjoied it. i geuss im happy for the most part but i cant help but wonder what i could have done diffrently. im told i shouldnt think about the past just look to the future. and thats hard for me because i dont see much of one. I cant stand the way people act today, mabie thats the problem. All the lies and pain people cause its just so... pointless really. kids being killed, raped, molested, and adults who dont know how to relate to thier kids. I meen how hard is it to ask your child how was your day or any problems you might want to talk about. its just sad the way our world is to day i miss bieing a kid i know i still am one pretty much but i miss laughing with out worrieing is to day the day my life will end? or is to day the day i end it my self. yes i have been suicidle and still am a little bit, but why im asked all the time. ill tell you, its hard for kids and i know adults have there problems to. but to be a kid is harder to day. it makes me so angry that kids go home and are hungry or get beaten for something they cant controle and thats who they are. ive been abused my self as a child and teenager physcly mentaly and of corse the most common verbily i hate them all. and what people dont seem to relise is that bieing told or shown that your worthless and theres really nothing you can do about it it hurts. thats why kids think of and or commit suicide. we dont know how to show that other then anger or hurting our selfs and or others. so we turn to drugs or drinking some times to cope as adults put it but it does help with the pain for a short time. any way ill finish by saying that adults need to start trying to help kids more. and stop thinking every things fine.