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again again u am rather confused my heart hurts my eyes allow my tears to fall

and although i feel numb i feel as though i am truely dying inside due to you

you cut me deep then say your sorry

while turn to your friends and laugh behind my back



i did what you didnt have the balls to do and yet you blame me !! why?

am as always lost in thought of the day to start

how much will it hurt ?

will i smile?

will he take me in his arms and tell me he loves me .....i doubt it!



but hey life aint ever as we wish it to be!



i am myself and do not act out who i am !

omg why cant teachers give us a bloody break ... i have 3 eassy and 2 represnation due for tomorrow grrr :( but hey must do it rock on everyone

again we fight and again u say forget it n move on but we have done that so often that now i dont think we can .... u pretend we dont fight and what does it do .. make it harder to be

why do people never think i can handle the truth .. just say it grrr.. i am not a child.

it hurts worse to see you be false then to be real to me when i have give all i can to be honest with u from my happy moments to the parts that i try to bury deep in the shadows of my mind. .. why cant u do the same

why do i feel so lost right .. now everything seems as it should why am i confused..

hmm another day of sleep , drink and boredom hmmm may have to do some bloody work soon:)!!!

my mum always said love isnt meant to hurt ... funny really cause she let my dad hurt her again an again till he got bored of beating her and left to beat another women out of her dignity..



i know that love hurts ... i have the scars to prove it ...when i was weak and let him cut me , burn me ...bleed me not 4 love did hedo it ...he did 4 power and i was lost in my own pain ...was left feeling nothing



i wish you could see the world through my eyes ... see the love i still have left trapped under my skin under my scars .. though my skin did heal and left me with these scars my heart never healed

wow wow wow god i am actually very happy ... which is werid i guess when everyone is arguing but i am , i have found someone i can connect with and he is amazing ! maybe this can be my new start and maybe i will find something that will keep me this happy always?

sophie ive got one thing to say.....



smile and be happy :D

life is good and don't let idiots get you down, try not to get to deep and depressed.



just think al these people on here think they have it so tuff, and life is 'shit' but theirs people in the world where its so much wose, and that dose not mean that life is shit cos theres so much misseray in the world, cos its not.

oh but maybe it is...... life is shit ohhhhh god i hate my life /cry



sorry had to take the mic a bit, just a little. any way hi and bye