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ok i know i not written in here in ages i been trying to sort my head out but find myself not doing that i feel no one wants me no more and im doing wrong all the time and everything is my fault i dont know how to get rid of some of these thoughts that i just cant get rid of like how my ex could treat me like she did and why she did what she did to me when i did nothing wrong and i also feel no one wants me no more and that my love doesnt want me no more and i dont please or make her happy no more :o( i dont know what to do that i was and am very close to i have lost as i not heard from her for ages when ive evern mailed text and left messages to get hold of me and talk and meet up i dont know what i dont to deserve this?? what can i do i just dont know what to do and i miss her so much too and talking and she was always there for me and i was the same for her no matter what and i still am here for her like i promised i just wish she talk and sort things out? i love her still as close friend i just hope she knows that. i hope she doesnt hate me or mad at me as i dont know what ive done wrong?