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Outside looking in.

Current mood: numb





Anyone else feel like their life has taken a turn where even though you are here, you feel like you are just a spectator?



It's almost like being a ghost, or a shadow on the wall - I watch my friends have a life, love, happiness and I think I remember being there once. So long ago it seems. Now I feel like I made so many turns in a deep forrest that I don't remember how to get back and there's nobody here to hear me if I scream.



Did I do something where I will never see happiness again? It seems so, I think I'm here, alone in the darkness with only the moonlight as my friend and even the moon disappears sometimes leaving me so completely alone. I dream of you sometimes and wonder if you were real... Maybe it would be less cruel if I never knew you. Couldn't remember your touch, the sound of your voice, the light in your hair. You've been gone for so long it shouldn't hurt anymore and still the wind wispers your name, taunting me....Reminding me that nothing has ever filled the space you left deep in my soul when you went away.

Hypocrites

Current mood: annoyed





(This happened a little while ago but it still pisses me off!)



I can't stand hypocrites - especailly those who shroud their hypocracy with religion.







News flash - You cannot be a bigot and claim to be religious!! If you were to truly believe in your Christian upbringing you would not judge other people, You also would not try to force your twisted views on life down other people's throats.



Sorry for ranting but I'm pretty upset. I live with an old family friend. My daughter went to the Gay pride parade today and this old fart threw a fit! So I told him he can't force his believes on my daughter and she wasn't doing anything wrong. (Quite frankly, it was none of his damn business where she was going - he's not her father, or my father or my boyfriend or even related to us) He started yelling that he doesn't like "fucking faggots" so I replied "Oh, so you are mad that she isn't a bigot?"and he tells me he believes in the Bible. - Yeah right, since when? Or is it just the part that suits you? He has never gone to Church and certainly has to be one of the meanest son-of-a-bitches of ever met!



I'm not Christian but I believe in letting people live their lives as long as they are not hurting anyone else. I think you should respect other's views, morals and ideas, hell I know I'm not in position to judge. I also believe everyone should be treated equally and support my daughter for sticking up for people who are put down because they are different.

It saddens me to watch friends walk down a dark path that I once knew well. Knowing I cannot follow them or bring them back into the light. Knowing that they must stumble down that path alone until they finally get the direction straight.....



I tried to be your light and tried to show you which way to go I told you of my trials on that road ansd still you chose to take it. Farewell, my friend I will look for your return.

It is frustrating being limited on messages. I apologize to those of you I have not beeen able to answer. If I can break this damn 80% mark and move on I will attempt to answer you in a more timely fashion.