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So last night which was Sep 22 '16 my bf feel asleep next to me on accident at around 10 or 11 pm. Well he us usually the person who tells me to go to bed. Normally I done have to and stay on my phone a little whole longer then go to sleep. Yet this time I don't know what it was. Like I just didn't go to sleep. Wasnt tired whatsoever. And like also this was two days after I had just started taking my ADD pill again. The first day was rough conistering I jumped back on what I was on after a while so it was actually an overdose and my whole body was like in a panic attack until it wore off which was at 3-4pm when I took it at 8-9am. That long was about how long the pill usually lasts so I understood that it was the pill and it did what is was supposed to so anyway as long as bit was supposed to. But I know my pill is not supposed to calm you. ADHD pills calm you. They are ment too. With ADD it is supposed to wake you up and get your brain working and focusing. So the pill doesn't last all day at and it doesn't energize me for later. So this seems unlikely to me that it would be the pill keeping me up at night. So what also happened that night is that right after the Sun came up I all of a sudden, like I felt a huge difference, I was sleepy and tired and was then ready to go to bed. Um pretty sure I've never had this happen to me before but it could of and I just didn't notice. Actually the more I think about the times I used to stay up so late when I was 12-14 I would normally sleep about when the Sun came up. So to me this seems like my vampireness. Now this confuses me of it is too because before I started taking my meds again I was sleeping at like 12 sometimes earlier sometimes a little later. But also I remember before I moved into my bfs house when I had school which was before may I would get tired and would love to sleep at 10. Sometimes earlier. And lately I've been a day person (that was after I stopped taking the meds and before I started again which was between june- a couple days ago) so I'm confuses on of that maybe the med helps me get my head on stright to where I gain my vampire back again. Because also I felt my vamprisum before I stopped taking my meds. And in the time I stopped taking the meds I felt lost and could hardly feel parts of myself anymore I was extremely confused and didn't know why. So in thinking that the meds may help me be more me. But I've also been told by spiritual friends in the afterlife that medicine now adays kill off your spiritual connection and things little by little. Its kind of like they use it to control you better like to make you think that the demons you say was all in your head because the meds block it out and makes your stronger. Yet they did also tell me that sometimes meds do help you. But normally that's for "human-like" quality problems or motal Bain impairments. Like clinical depression and more.

And then also 23rd or Sep night I went traveling and was not tired at all and also was just wanting to stare outside into the darkness and feel spiritual energy And stuff. So I feel like I'm barley at all going to sleep And then also my meds get rid of my appitite when before I was eating everything So like I'm going to die. I'm barley eating and then barley sleeping. I don't know.

So let me know what you think. What it might be, what it might be doing, what is happening with me. Because these are my theories and I'm just stupped.

Hello I'm Wiccan pagan and looking for a covan. I'm also a friend to the otherside and I'm Gaia.

My name is scarlet I've been me for 3000 years. I'm not immortal so I was alive in the medieval times and was killed I'm my kingdom and then tourtured I'm the void until I was rescued by my brother durge, the demon of blood, and lived with him and my father arawn, Celtic God of the underworld, until I was reborn. I now share the title of Gaia with my split.

Vampirisum runs in the family. My father arawn is a vampire and so is durge. Yet I'm a little different and I'm more of a light person so I'm a empathetic vampire. If I have the right name that would be where I take energies of other people's strong feelings and sometimes even end up liking what they like or whatever. I'm not certain yet but in this life I was feeling my vamperisum a lot when I remembered or knew again and I was able to take energy from the Sun or just from light itself and that was called a daywalker. Although now that its been a while And i've wandered away from it a bit I'm nit so sure sure as to what I am.

Currently I need a one on one 24/7 vampire mentor to find myself again. Or of not that then a covan. But as of right now I have had no luck.

So I was traveling home the other night and it was just me and my bfs mom driving. We are starting to turn on this creepy neighbourhood and there is a truck comming already but she keeps going. But she's going like super slow. And this truck is just going spook fast like not even stopping. All I see is it comming stright for me. Like I'm about to die. But she gets over right at the right time where it missed us. Like OMG I was I'm shock. She didn't even notice and I dont know how and that person didn't slow down at all. I was close to death. And so now I'm wanting to like love more for my paganism, vampirisum, Wicca life.

I need a covan I'm San Antonio. Like a group of either pagans, wiccans, or vampires. So of you have one let me know.

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