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a man in darkness, haunts my dreams

every night i toss and turn,

my eyes shut, but not yet closed

only a few hours of sleep until morning

my thoughts wondering

my hearts pounding

everything around me desinigrating

blue flames warm my chilled body

as my dreams become reality

scared of what may come

i try to force myself awake

but the cold has frozen me to my nightmare

the man that scares me cold

is only darnkness himself

the darkness

straid from my path for so long

lost from my way

only to find an end

know where to go

but back

blind from all that i wanted

only to have it right beside me

holding my hand

helping me find the way

bringing me closer to the light

i let go...

not knowing what i had

was what i wanted

lost from the world

i hold still

while time passes by

left with nothing but my thoughts

relisation struck me cold

...you were my light all along

Sparkling stars in the night sky

a whisper in the wind

clouds slowly blanket the night

the moon shining down on me

i look above in the heavens

and watch the stars streek the night

wishing i could share my night with someone

wishing i could share my love

but with who?

maybe it could be you

i sit in the feelds of sleeping wild flowers

waiting for someone to rescue me from my doubts

sudenly you stand before me

bloking me from the chill of the night

your kind hand softly brush against my cheek

your eyes meet mine and a suden wormth has come upon me

i blink and i see a bright sun just arising upon me

and i realize that it was only a dream

The classroom's chatter slow to a whysper among the students, quit scratching agenst paper with pens and pencils fill the room, for answers of there own poetry, while I'm sitting in the corner, wrighting a poem of my own, the clicking of pencils and rubbing of erasers a distraction to my ears, to think of words unfamilier to my own work, my brain scrambles with thoughts of what to say, my eyes wonder to the other side, the blinds open to the chilled outside, to many clouds hide my sun, to cold for a skirt, but to warm for a fer coat, a motercycle helmet catches my eye, it lay against the window pain, many questions of where its been, wheres its traveled, its blackness reflects the things around it, from what little sunlight that seeps through the gray clouds. The time is 11:17 not close enough for time to fly not far enogh to be the end, I look around the room at the people that serounds me, Black and white, preps and punks, nerds and goth, so many catagories, so many tittles, but where od i belong? am i a knowbody or a somebody thats a knowbody?, my mind flutters with questions unanswered, but as soon as the bell rings through the hallways i'll feel more at home, because my best friend will be right there with me and there will be a new begging and new faces.

Black kertins blocking whats ahead of us, chatter amongst the friends hiding behind thier nervousness, a sudden glimpse of the future lay with in the creases of the present, holding back tears of fear of the good-byes, the fear of never again. lost in the thought of friends spending time together. with out warning the kertins opened up to a bright new world, strangers spread across just to watch others move on. sitting, watching, waiting. are greatest friends on each side to scare away the pain. it all seemed like a dream, like i was going to wake up soon, but my freind was squeezing my hand enough for me to knwo it was all real, i really did walk up on to that stage as my name was called, ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND OUT.

The water calm

The sunset bright on my eyes

I sit and wonder will I ever say my goodbyes

I sit on this peaceful lake wondering for so long

if at this very moment your staring at the same sky

the clouds adrift slowly overhead staring down on me

and im wondering are you and i ment to be?

the day terns to night, the moon overhead

a shooting star streaks across the night

and i wish something ive never wished be for

a wish that i could know more

know if you're the one

I hope this wish wasnt wasted

finelly the night begins to cool

and i think if only you were here with me

~the darkness i tried so hard to avoid, has swallowed me whole once again

~with cringing soul and withering heart, i find myself alone.

~i lay here bleeding be for the world and know one seems to notice.

~my smiles hide my pain within

~the rain flooding away my dreams

~my heart confussed, my mind heavy, my soul empty

~i seek to be happy, but in the end im always alone

~pain surges through my empty life wanting to belong, longing to be wanted, but rejected.

~my heart frozen in place, the one thing that pierces the ice and warms my heart to a steady beat...is you

~my tears ready to fall, as my pain strikes faster then lightining

~I have let go of all hope pr desire

~the things i found happiness in, Gone.

~the emptyness has become my friend, the dagger me enamie, tearing through my heart.

~my life cursed, pain is all that i have known, my place is in the shadows, where the darkness consumes me

~my heart has indures so many slashes, i never thought it could heal

~sudden light chased my pain away, that day you took me in your arms

~but fresh blood wounders from new cuts

~and scars are foarmed once again

~when i said i would go through hell with you, i didnt mean this way

~I look to the stars and hope ill wake up from this nightmare

~only to relise that i was only dreaming and this nightmare is reality

~my wishs are only to dream again, dream of your touch and your love.

~but will it all end again?

~will i keep coming back to this nightmare?

~never have i thought i could feel this pain and live

~i call out to you, to heal my wounds once more

~i call out to you, to scare away my nightmare forever

~i call for you for help, for your the only one who can stop the bleeding

~ how long will this nightmare go on?

~your my light and with out you im left in total darkness