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i just recently lost two very important people in my life and i don't know how to handle it. they were my brother and sister.they died in a car wreck. the car they were driving was mineand it was supped up like a sonofabitch. my brother was driving and took the turn too fast and went head on into an 18 wheeler. my sister got thrown out the window and was crushed by the truck. before he died my bro called me to come c him one last time and made me swear to take care of the only 2 people i have left in my life. since then i've been drinking like a fish in water. they died a cuople of days ago and i don't think they left. maybe i'm loseing my mind or maybe it's the guilt that all my so called friends put on saying it's my fault that they're dead.i was told that i should've been the one driving and u know, maybe that person is right but i wasn't. i miss my brother and sister so much i love them both. i just want to talk to them one last time so i can say goodbye. i wish i knew what to do or how things r gonna work out. i've thought about ending it all myself to be with them again but i can't do that to my girlfriend and sister. someone plz give me some advice before it's too late, cuz when i drink when i'm depressed bad thing happen.