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there's nothing to do

but sit here and think

i dwell on thoughts of you

slowly i sink

for it may never be

my world

s falling apart

could you ever love me

there's only but a piece of my heart

you seem to have this powerful pull

to where i can't look away

you seem to see inside my soul

what's this feeling, i can not say

i wih and hope that it could be

for you to feel the same

just another heartache for me

you don't even know my name

you can never find peace in one's lonely heart

for even lover's are kept apart

you can never find peace in one's troubled mind

for true love is hard to find

you can never find peace in one's abandoned life

for a broken heart is like a knife

you can never find peace in a stolen soul

for love alone takes it's toll

you can never find peace in an ex-lover's words

for they fly away like a flock of birds...

you once made me whole

you once saw inside my soul

but you went away

when i needed you to stay

now a piece of me is lost

like our love that you tossed

emptyness is all that's there

cause you really didn't care

take me way up high

where i can see the whole night sky

where the birds pass us by

take me way up high

take me where it's only you and me

our special place, you're all i see

the only place i want to be

take me where it's only you and me

take me away

from the world cold & gray

i feel i can't stay

so take me away

is anyone there

does anyone care

i'm so alone

cold to the bone

i have so much pain

with nothing to gain

do you hear my voice

this is my choice

a silent cry

wanting to die

my lifeline is wearing thin

that's how it's always been

people tend to make me mad

yes, i know that's kind of bad

i seem to have a lot of rage

enough to fill one whole page

i've just had a bad year

did i make myself clear

if we're cool then let it be

it's the only way to deal with me

Note: my friend D.L.M aka Bob wrote this poem



do you love me or do you not

i remembered once but i forgot

i do believe that God above

sent you here for me to love

if you're not here on Judgement Day

i'll know you went the other way

to prove my love for you is true

i'd go to hell to be with you

sometimes i dream of death

i see myself take my last breath

sometimes i dream of running away

cause i don't want to stay

sometimes i dream of breaking free

being who i want to be

sometimes i dream thoughts so black

even the night can't call me back

wish in a well

dream for it to come true

what i can not tell you

i once wished i had you

i know it isn't real

but yet i had to face the day

i can't help the way i feel

i wish there was another way

so much hate

all over the state

ripping everything apart

i feel it's only the start

so many fights

so many terrible sights

tearing up the ground

all year round

so many people dying

so many people crying

so many tears

so many fears

so many laughs

lastly so many paths

another cut was added to many before

cut deep to my core

the pain is great

strong like hate

scars are what i have to show

for bad times, when i was lower that low

don't give me an evil glare

cause i really don't care

say it to my face

or get off of my case

sometimes i just want to scream

for it's death i dream

people try to listen to what i say

why can't they just go away

don't come to my place

get out of my face

is your life that dull

that you try to see over my wall

my life is not that great

i won't even hesitate

to say get off my back

cause you don't know jack'

why can't anyone see

i just want to be me

i'm not some puppet on a string

that you can make dance & sing

i won't change for you

so please don't ask me to

the lie that tore my world apart

the lie you told that ripped my heart

the world i know has come undone

cause you thought it would be fun

to make me seem like i'm a loser

you had to be the abuser

you could of told the truth instead

but your words keep running through my head

i didn't see it in your eyes

that's how you've told so many lies

i can't believe anything you say

for the fact you lied today

i write from the depths of my soul

the words just seem to flow

writting poetry is part of my role

so many words with no place to go

i write what i feel

the words take over me

tha't what makes me real

the words have a voice

the meaning lies within

so let the writting begin

someone save my shattered soul

someone dry all my tears

someone fix this giant hole

someone fight all my fears

someone just please be there

someone pleas just care

sometimes i laugh

even if the joke is lame

following an un-planned path

inside burns my flame

it's okay to sometimes smile

it's okay to sometimes grin

it's okay every once & a while

it's okay to SOMETIMES give in

even though my poems may be sad

i'm happy every once & a while

i've even been truly glad

not always my normal style

i know that there are beautiful things

i'm not sad all day long

like a bird that sings

can't be weak, must be strong

i laugh sometimes just to please

there are times when i am truly me

i even joke & tease

not someone you want me to be

why does everything go wrong for me

what did i ever do

stung like a bee

of many i am few

i feel so alone in this place

i have a dark secret

no smile on my face

i'm going to keep it

except me or not

you can holler & shout

it's a battle i've fought

that's what i'm about

i live in the dark so cold

i feel empty inside

i feel a hundred years old

i just want to hide

from everyone & all

they don't seem to understand

i've built a defense wall

no one to take my hand

i'm pushed away

i feel so low

when i want to stay

now i'll just go

all the lies you've told

always behind my back

as your lies unfold

always the same track

speaking only anothe lie

stating noting true

so this is good-bye

see, i'm done with you

you say you want to stay friends

that you'd still like to talk

i hate how that ends

my heart says stay but my head says walk

you've made me smile

you've made me cry

it's been a while

so it's hard to try

to pretend that it's okay

when i feel shattered inside

i hope i find a way

to save my soul and keep my pride

i am alone beside others like me

in pain, so strong they still don't see

so many tears shed

the voices talking inside my head

from the inside out

there is no doubt

safe inside locked away

bound to come out one day

can't & won't tell

stumbled & i fell

around the bend

this is the end

why must you lie

when i know what's real

when you made me cry

i wonder if i'll heal

i put too much in

i didn't think it through

i didn't win

it was too good to be true

you think you know me

i think you're wrong

you just don't see

it's hard to be strong

if you really knew

would anything change

would it make your lies true

is it really that strange

it eats me up inside

yet i can not say

the road ahead is a long ride

to maybe a better day

this world is so cold

fire warms me not

i'm not even that old

but i have not forgot