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To be violated, a man who wants a force of power to destroy all that is hoped for in real life. What one person has the right to take from you that is not theirs. To be groped then stripped of all morals by one and have no control. What is to become of me, this violation will destroy me is there no devil or god alike to protect me from the harms or must I become a man hater and destroy them all. I have been violated in the worst of ways and no one is there to help me or protect me. I am now dead to all that is good. Life has no meaning now and I am used material.

The only love I know is in eternal darkness, never to know his touch. Only the dreams by the siluette of the moon, which is my curse. I shall never be touched and held til dawn nor shall I be kissed or know the passions of the flesh. I dream of a forever darkness that brings me sorrow, he comes to me in my sleep and carresses me oh sweetness to never know. The love of time is waiting to break my curse may heaven and hell know my pain. I cry tears of blood on my pillow as I close my eyes to slumber so I may see my one true love, he comes toward me and I run to the garden in hopes he follows. A garden of roses that turns to a maze, it changes randomly. I can smell his scent as it nears me , making the woman in me want him more knowing he may not ever touch me. I reach for him and he turn to a mist of brightness ,I wake up its daylight and I'm alone again. Tears fall into my pillow which is stained red. My heart is breaking will It ever be more than a dream?

In my prison of the ocean that drowns me, my life becomes despair and lonliness. The blackness engulfes me on the surrounding tide as it passes over me. The desires of being freed from this prison has engulfed me. I will never be set free to be held and carressed by no man again I am alone in my prison. The hell I created will elude all those who desire me, there is only one who can free me. He is not of this he is in his own prison of sorrow and pain. Can true love beat the walls in and set us free? Will there be a light in our darkness or is it forever.

It engulfes me , is it death? No it is my place among my family. I have always lived in darkness never really truely loving anyone, where is my lord my equal is there such a being in this world? I look in the nite welcoming the howls of darkness, alert the most in the abyss. I dream of a never ending love that brings a light to my engulfing lonliness, Where is my love, where is he? I long for the passion I never have had, I long for the kisses and the touch of his hand making me want it while he is gone. I dream of him every day with no face. I see it in the stars when I stare at them long enough.

When I do find my trueness will they be able to handle the burning of my death grips in our passions or will I consume him with it like I have in the past, everything i touch dies beneath me or around me.

Am I to be alone forever, I can feel he is close but to far to touch, I smell his sweat, can almost taste his blood in my mouth and he welcomes me. I am the daughtr of death and lust, who is my equal the one who can satisfy my ever lust . Who can control the fire that burns when I touch them. I am alone and think it will be forever. My dark cold heart never to loved.