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here i am living a life i hate... working my life away at a job i hate just so i can hand all of my money over to my mom to pay bills. i rarely ever see my friends and i am alone.... i thought it coulndnt get any worse.... i thought wrong...



kathleen and clayton got evicted today.... clayton swears up and down that he already has a house lined up for them to move in to on saturday... i dont believe him



i am trying very hard.. to the best of my ability to accept that they most likely will be moving in with us again.....



i want to cry... the only person i feel like i can talk to about this isn't home to talk to me and he most likely wont return my call... he's too busy to talk to me...



i need him to remind me that its not the end of the world... that things will get better.... soon.... some how i know its gonna get alot worse before it gets better, i just dont know what else can happen..... god i wish he would call me so i could talk to him, i always feel relieved when i talk to him he has that effect on me.....



PLEASE GOD HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS,, and please never let me depend on a man so much that myself and 4 children are forced from our home

feels like a giant treadmill.... you run and run and run but in the end your in the same place that you started.....

why can't i find 1 guy who my family would approve of??? they didn't like the last one and i was telling them about the guy in work thats been flirting with me and they wont even give him a chance... yeah so he's a bit older and has kids but hes a great guy to b around... he tells me i'm pretty... he makes me feel good about myself.... i need that... i need a guy to tell me i'm pretty..... yes i know its pathetic.... but my selfesteem SUCKS......



i just wish i could find one that my family liked too it would make my life easier..... They always say i deserve some one better, but what if i can't, what if this really is the best i can do?

GOD I HATE THIS!!!!

I DONT WANT TO FALL FOR THE FIRST GUY WHO COMPLIMENTS ME BUT I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE EITHER..................



THE FUNNY THING IS NOT EVEN MY EX APPROVES OF THIS ONE AND MY EX IS NOT REALLY A JUDGEMENTAL PERSON.....



i guess that should say something about this guy........



ohwell i wasn't trying to marry him or anything i just wanted to flirt and have allittle fun.... but no one thinks thats a good idea..... ohwell