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I feel like I want to go out and run as fast as I can, not to run away but just to let the energy flow faster in my body, let my heart beat so fast that it becomes numb and allow all the scenery to become nothing of a blur. To run through the woods, wild as an animal.



Anyway back down to my four walls call my bedroom. I have been on wits end trying to balance my practices in the occult and my schoolwork. I want to practice soo badly but, I haven't been able to focus clearly enough to give it my full attention when I continue to question myself whether or not if my last project was what the teacher wanted, did it meet his requirements, did I push myself enough to say that this was an earned A, are the other students projects going to make mine look like a F, blah blah blah.



I want to start studying the Other Planes, as in Gate Magick. gate magick is were I can create or destroy gates to plans in hopes of expanding my evocation and channelling abilities and to learn more about other entities.



i want to find other friends since I only have a few, it takes me such i long time to be able to fully trust anybody, then there is those who I blurt everything about me to without a care in the world. It is soo hard to actually talk to someone about your true self, and about your practices. At least here I don't meet anyone face to face, which makes it easier to talk about myself to people.