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Ok I know i said my last journal entry was to be continued, but i am so angry right now I am going to add this one in first. How can someone portray themselves as honest, loyal, hates dishonesty and say that family is the most important thing in their life, then cheat on their partner ( which in my eyes is cheating on their kids too ), dont get online and sprout about being a great guy loves his wife and kids yadda yadda yadda dribble some more bullsh*t, then as soon as her back is turned be online telling someone else you love them. CHEATING IS CHEATING, dont give me this crap that its only online so its harmless fun, I wasnt born yesterday and have had my fair share of harmless online fun. How you can call yourself a man is beyond me. I am probably going to get shot down in flames for airing my views but D.I.L.L.I.G.A.F . If you wanna F*ck with my family you F*ck with me too, and as sweet and innocent as i can play someone better help you when i see you next, because by hell i am not gonna hurt you physically but i really hope you have good mental stability, because you are going to hear from me exactly what I think of your pathetic excuse you call your actions I am thoroughly disgusted that you think what you have done is ok. I am sorry for taking up the time of the people that have subscribed to my journal, but i had to get that out. Now to shake it off because that person has had enough of my time and I feel slightly better now :)

There have been so many defining moments in my life so this could be a long journal entry but bare with me. I was born in Adelaide South Australia on the 23rd of June 1982, I don't recall a lot of my early years so i will go from where i can remember clearly. As a child we moved around more times than i can remember my parents separated when i was quite young and that was when the moving was so frequent, we finally settled in Port Pirie when i was 11 and my mum remarried in 1994. We were to have 1 final move during my years that i lived with my parents and that was to a small country town that i called home til i was 18. As most of you would have been able to guess if you read my profile i was a young mum ( a very young one actually ) at the tender age of 13 i discovered i was pregnant DON'T BOTHER CRITICIZING ME I HAVE HEARD IT ALL!!! On the 7th of January 1997 I gave birth to a healthy baby boy I thought my life was perfect ( how wrong I was ). Only 8 weeks later i awoke to find my gorgeous child not breathing I didn't even know what SIDS was let alone understand why it took my son from me, so not only had i had a tremendous battle being a teenage mother I then had to take on a challenge no parent should ever face grieving for and planning a funeral for my child. At this point i hated the world, I despised this so called GOD that could let murderer's live but could take the life of an innocent baby ( I was so lost ). But life has a funny way of throwing new things at us, i discovered within days of saying goodbye to my child that I was indeed carrying another. All i could think is WTF, this really cant be happening but it certainly was. Back to the child growing inside me he was born on the 21st of November 1997 yes that's right the same year as his brother. You can not imagine the fear that a parent faces after losing a child, every noise every movement or lack of for that matter sent me running to him ( that was if i ever put him down ). Despite all my fears he is a healthy strapping almost 13 yr old now. It was during that time that I thought i had met the love of my life HAHAHA WRONG AGAIN, he treated my son as his own was always there for me and treated me like a princess, that was until I got pregnant with my daughter and holy crap did all hell break loose. It wasn't til many years later that i realised he was a scared little boy that wasn't ready for responsibility, even though he was 6 years older than me. Long story short he ran and it was not long after that i met a man i use that term loosely, that i spent a better part of 10 years with, back to my daughter she was born on the 20th of march 1999. So here i was 16 yrs old a mother of 3 ( yes i do always refer to my eldest son because no matter what he will always be my child ) I thought life was pretty good i wouldn't say perfect because my thoughts on that had already been shattered. I had my little boy and my little girl I had a loving partner what more could i want?

To Be Continued...........................

well this is my first entry not sure what to put here, but thought i would start with a little about my life. I am almost 28 a mother of 8 kids and have a serious interest in the dark side of life.

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Invidia
16:34 Jun 15 2010

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