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If I Could
06:57 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 657

by Danielle



If I could trade my breath for you,

I'd never breathe again.

If you could understand me,

I wouldn't have to play pretend.



If I had a chance to hold you now,

I promise I wouldn't let you go.

If you could read my lips,

my love for you would show.



If I had never met you,

my life wouldn't be the same.

If my life had a meaning,

I would have to speak your name.



If you could look into my eyes,

you'd see my dying soul.

If you could see my broken heart,

you'd see an empty hole.



If I had the chance to start all over,

I'd promise to be true.

If I could say just one last thing,

I'd tell you, "I love you."

Suicide
06:56 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 658

by Danielle



Is someone out there listening?

This story is really sad...

My world is full of pressure...

It's making my mind mad...



Is someone out there caring?

My world is oh so cold...

No one seems to care for me...

My story may go untold...



I pick the gleaming knife up...

My reflection lies within...

I feel the cold and bitter steel...

And long to plunge it in...



No one seems to hear me...

No one seems to care...

I gently run the knife across my wrists...

and now I'm scared...



My boyfriend left me for my friend...

She was my best friend too...

He loves her now and holds her close...

My whole world is so doomed...



My parents seem to nag and nag...

About my falling grades…

My friends don't want to hear of it...

And no one knows my pain...



So no one cares about me...

I write this and I cry...

For on this fateful evening...

I swear I'll take my life...



No one seems to love me...

And no one seems to care...

So I'll show everyone of them...

My body will catch their glare...



What's this in my backpack?

A letter from my mom?

It says I love you, Daughter of mine,

Forever, love, your Mom...



What's this here in my math book?

A note from that guy in class...

he seems to have a crush on me...

Am I finally loved at last?



No! These are just distractions...

I've finally made up my mind...

It's time to end this sorrow...

It's time for me to die...



I take the pills and drink the bleach

That I placed out the night before...

I'm vomiting now profusely...

But I keep on taking more...



I plunge the knife into my soul

and feel my life dissipate...

I don't want to die anymore...

but I fear that it's too late...



My older sister enters the room

and see the blood and gore...

She screams for my mom to come get me

as I bleed upon the floor...



The darkness clouds my vision...

The emptiness is great...

I'm scared of what is happening...

were my family much too late?



I wake up in a hospital,

My stomach aching so...

My family is all around me...

My friends are there also...



I can't believe that they are here...

I thought nobody cared...

But everyone did love me...

That's why they all were there...

Yesterday
06:50 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 659

by Danielle



I thought about you yesterday

And tears ran down my face

As I remembered all the memories

That can never be erased



Though it was eight years ago

Every now and then

Something makes me think of you

And of what might have been



I remember all the good times

The laughter and the tears

Memories that warm my heart

When I look back on those happy years



But every time I remember

My heart begins to ache

Those special times were real for you

Your smile was so great



You thought that no one loved you

Your heart was breaking inside

Your soul was crying tears

That you tried so desperately to hide



And then I remember that morning

The words ring in my head

"Sit down, we have bad news for you,

danielle, dallas's dead"



I wept so bitterly over you

I cried for your hurt inside

I knew it was no accident

I knew you committed suicide



I cried that you had hurt so much

And cried that you died alone

I cried because I blamed myself

I cried because I should have known



It's been a eight years

I get stronger as time goes by

I try to put the past behind me

And forget you left us so



But then something makes me think of you

And of that tragic day

And I still remember...

Remember like it was yesterday

She almost had it all
06:48 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 660




by Danielle



She was young and beautiful

she seemed to have it all,

A husband, house, and family

a life that couldn't fall.



Always dressed in designer clothes

she drove a fancy car,

Diamonds dressed her fingers

she always played the star.



Money was never an issue

she had so much and more,

Always helping her family and friends

donating to the needy and poor.



Her husband spoilt her endlessly

red roses to brighten her day,

Holidays, restaurants, and jewelry

lavishing gifts her way.



Her children were always immaculate

well mannered and always well dressed,

And as she put them to bed at night

she knew that she truly was blessed.



She often thanked God for the life she led

and shared her good fortune around,

Her heart was described as a heart of gold

a heart not easily found.



She'd always felt so contented

in her role as mother and wife,

She'd dreamt of this as a very young girl

this happy and stable life.



Then one night in August

loving thoughts danced through her mind,

She came home unexpectedly

not expecting to see what she'd find.



Were her eyes deceiving her

was it all just in her head,

Or was there another woman

sharing her marital bed?



Her husband leapt up in a panic

fumbling for words to explain,

The look on her face had said it all

the sorrow, the hurt, and the pain.



She was shaking uncontrollably

as she raced back to her car,

Taking her children with her

her heart had now been scarred.



A scar forever embedded

in the core of her very soul,

Tattooed in her memory

the pain was taking its toll.



The man she had loved for many years

had twisted a knife in her back,

The man she'd adored and honored

had left her heart with a crack.



The crack in her heart was invisible

but the pain showed up on her face,

The smile that used to shine like the sun

disappeared with a frown in its place



Her life was never the same again

and the bottle helped conquer her fears,

The pills were helping her sleep at night

her pillow now stained with her tears.



Her life was slipping out of her grasp

she was drowning deep in her sorrow,

An act of betrayal had crushed her

leaving no thoughts for tomorrow.



One night when her children were sleeping

she kissed them as they lay in their bed,

She then went out to the garage

and put the gun to the side of her head.



That night she asked God to forgive her

for committing the worlds greatest sin,

And as she pulled on the trigger

the demons were smiling within.



For they had claimed yet another soul

in this war against human life,

Leaving her children motherless

stabbing their hearts like a knife.



The fancy car still sits in the driveway

designer clothes still left as they were,

A ghostly reminder of a life once led

everywhere, reminders of her.



Her money had saved her from poverty

saved her children from a life of crime,

But money couldn't save her from herself

she left before her time

A Dream
06:47 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 661




by Danielle



I woke up this morning,

And looked into your eyes.

I told you I loved you

...And kissed you good-bye.



You got into your car,

And drove out of sight.

How was I to know

I wouldn't see you that night?



I saw the footage

And let out a scream.

Were you really in there

Or is this just a dream?



Why is this happening?

Dear God, tell me why-

The plane hit that building

And my love had to die.



It just isn't fair!

This cannot be true.

Let me see him one more time

And tell him, "I love you."



Who could make such a plan...

Such a terrible scheme?

Please, tell me it's not true

That it was all just a dream.

Every Time
06:46 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 662

by Danielle



When I touched your hand

I thought I touched flowers

And I need to understand

Why a moment without you... is like hours



I kissed your tears

I touched your lips

Oh, my love,

You give me the power of missing you

Even if you walk away- two steps



Every time I pray

Wishing you will stay

Waiting for you every day

To live with you away



I feel the pain- if you sigh

With you, love will never die

I will be yours and you will be mine

Every day and every time

I Still Love You
06:45 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 663

I Still Love You

by Danielle



I heard your old song again,

and for the first time I didn't cry.

I held onto the tears inside,

although I had to really try.

I still love you,

but as more times pass,

I'm beginning to realize

that my love cannot forever last.

My love for you is not getting loved back,

and I can't go on with too much pain

because my stress and sadness

is breaking through my heart and veins.

I wish you'd still love me,

I wish we'd still be together,

just like you told me it would be,

until the time of forever.

Unfortunately, you broke your promise.

Now I'm crying out a million tears.

I've lost your love and gentle touch,

and that was my biggest fear.

If God granted me a wish,

I'd wish to dream of you forever

so I could forever smile,

and ask him to wake me up never.

Now you're in a new relationship,

and I see you're happy without me.

I just have to face the fact

that that's the way you want it to be.

I have to realize she keeps you happy,

even though it drives me crazy and insane.

Maybe I didn't make you happy,

so I guess our break-up has me to blame.

So, stay happy and don't worry about me.

I know I'll get over you soon.

I just hope we stay close friends,

just like the stars and the moon.

In the future always remember how much I loved you.

I just hope and pray

that in a little place in your heart

I will always stay.

REVENGE...
06:43 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 664

REVENGE...

by Danielle



Today was the day you made me see

What a liar you are, and how you never loved me.

You led me on, confusing my love

And here I thought you were sent from above.



You never really listened, though you said you cared

But you always comforted me when I was hurt or scared.

Never wanted me to know how you really felt,

You said many things to make me melt.



My heart belonged to you before I smartened up,

Your love for me was only a bluff.

You tampered with my emotions and broke my heart.

I now have nowhere to go, and don't have a clue where to start.



For the ones who betrayed me I'll never look back...

I never shed pitty and that's a fact.

You can never trust anyone- except yourself,

Too bad for the good guys who need much help.



You've changed my life in many ways...

Now I know what it feels like to be betrayed.

I trusted you more than my best friend...

Yet, you screwed me over in the end.



I hope you're happy now that I'm gone

But I'll get you one day... I'll come on strong.

You will be sorry for what you've done...

Breaking my heart for number one...



There's much more to pay for,

I love revenge...

You'll get what's coming to you

...In the end.