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i sit in my room surrounded by people who say they understand and that they care, but always telling me what is best for me have i become so out of touch with myself that i am nothing but a blank slate for all to add what they want and make me into something that i am not? my heart is still in love with a man that is far from me and he loves me still.. my mind tells me to move away from him well wait who am i kidding i am stillvery much in love with him but he is locked away behind bars... and so much i want him with me always if only we had met before he got into all this trouble if only we had known each other before why si fate toying with my heart so many others have tried to win my heart and failed in the end my dearrest love my heart still belongs to you.. and his to me.. no more games no more worries i will stay with him, so many i have said i love them but i ment it but not like the way that i adore him,, he is rough around the edges but inside he is a carring loving man who is willing to go to the ends of the earth back so that he may never see me hurt again.. oh what a love i found, why do i not get back with him why am i pushing him away still iw ant so much to let him in my heart where he belongs but i have built my walls high around my heart forever more.. their is one man that i iwsh the best for and yet harm to.. he made me believe in mhim only to let me down.. he knows who he is and for that i say what comes around goes around... i see him but a lonely old man with no children and no one to love and to love him in return.. i weep for him not anger i will not feel but sorrow for it is people like that i truely pitty becuase they will never know true happieness in thier lifetime or the next...

I can breath a lil easier now for i know that life is by far the hardest thing is to live, death seems such and easy retreat, but not one i am not ready to take, such a weight has been lifted off my shoulders , my sweet dark angel came to and said live my love survive and i will fidn you again somehow i will return to you.. but soft spoken words help me make it through the day where i am discovery new things about people that i thought i knew.. and honestly those wha call themselfs my freinds and turn thier backs will get thiers in the end and belive me it will be bu t painful tears that fall from thier eyes and i will no longer care... wsch is life goes dog eats dog, human destroy human.. such is humanity always destroy each other rather then building and persevreing what is around us and what we may have.. or in actuallit do we reall y own anything that we say is ours or are we b ut slaves to our possessions and desires who ever really knows the answers t o these questions and will we evere find the answers to these no i think not .. for everything is but a journey that never ends, so for now i bid all thee farewell as i countinue on mine....

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cadrewolf
23:18 May 11 2009

life may seem hard at times yet we all work through our challenges and death is not worth the price of a life.

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