Now, you've written this family off. You're done with us. We are responsible for all of your screw ups and you're the victim. Seriously, I wonder when it was that I actually had the time to ruin your life. Being that I spend most of my time bailing you out and trying to make sense of the chaos in your life. You've never wanted for anything. The world was your oyster and everytime you fucked me over I forgave you. You know, maybe you're right. Maybe all of this is my fault. But as of this moment, you won't have to worry about me ruining your life anymore. I've just cut the strings to the bank account you've been bleeding dry. Good luck in the real world. You're going to need it! Oh, and the next time you have an "emergency", call that douche canoe you're dating. Let's see how fast he responds to your 411.
Ok, 30 days ago I thought he was a douche canoe, and so did you. Now, you've changed your mind. But to me, he's still a douche canoe. Nothing has changed. He's still a steroid sucking, narcissitic, freeloading asshole. And you're still going to move in with him. (this will be the 7th time you've done something this fucking stupid)
You ask me for my opinion, and I tell you. Then, you get pissed off. Conclusion: A fucking idiot will continue to make the same stupid mistakes over and over again. You can't stop a speeding train. So, I've learned to hear the whoooo whoooooo when I'm standing on the tracks. You got your ass into this mess, get yourself out!
I know you believe that people sit around thinking of the awesome effect you've had on their lives. But I'm not one of those people. I just think you're an asshole.
I haven't had anyone need me in a long time. But my mother's illness has changed all of that. Seeing her this fragile has put things into perspective. She's unsure of the world around her, and frightened by what's happened to her. I'm trying to make her understand, her life isn't over. Her lifeforbidden simply needs to be adjusted. As does mine. Everyday will be a challange for the two of us, and I feel as if I'm up to it. It's extremely difficult for the daughter to become the mother of her mother. But I don't have a choice. There were times when I needed her and she let me down. It wasn't her fault, it was simply her situation. I won't let her down, ever. The past is the past, and my future will not be shadowed in guilt.
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You're a good daughter, a good mother and a good friend. Your mom knows you will do the best you can for her and I doubt she expects you to be perfect.
She just expects you to be there...
Thanks, B. I really appreciate that.
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