~something I literally just wrote in the heat of the moment~
She prayed one day he will return
But at every turn she feels the burn
His promises broken, his lies revealed
He will never know how she now feels
She's pure of soul but black of heart
She'll make him pay for tearing her apart
Vengeance she seeks for his deceit
And whole-heatedly she gives him it
She had warned him on that first day
To never anger her this way
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
Its like the angel returned with horns
She is repentant for her past sins
But she doesn't see not to harm her kin
She tries to control the beast within
Stirring inside her like a gust of wind
No one is perfect, she tells herself
And I will not condemn myself
She turns towards the path of good and pure
Lest no one upset her anymore
I remember the way
We spoke every day
I sometimes wish
You weren't in bliss
I often wonder why
You left me there to cry
I looked into your eyes
As you spoke all those lies
It started out with lust
Now there is no trust
You suddenly walked away
And we have nothing to say.
A newlywed couple just moved into their new house. One day, the wife asked her husband, "Honey, one of the bathroom pipes is leaking. Could you fix it?"
The husband looked at his wife and said, "What do I look like -- Mr. Plumber?"
A few days went by, and his wife asked for a favor. "Honey, the car won't start. I think it needs a new battery. Could you change it for me?"
"What do I look like --...Mr. Goodwrench?"
A couple weeks later, the wife found a leak in the roof. "Honey, there's a leak on the roof. Can you please fix it?"
"What do I look like -- Bob Vila?" He sat down with a beer and watched a game on TV.
One rainy weekend, the husband realized the leak on the roof was gone. He went to the bathroom and found that the pipe behind the sink wasn't leaking anymore either.
When his wife returned home, the husband asked, "Honey, how come there aren't any more leaks and the car's running?"
She replied nonchalantly, "Oh, the other day I ran into one of our new neighbors, Jon. What a nice man. He came over and fixed everything.
"Wow, did he charge us anything?"
"No, he said he'd do it for free if I either baked him a cake or had sex with him."
"Cool. What kind of cake did you make?"
"Cake? What the hell do I look like -- Betty Crocker?"
No one could understand but a parent bereaved
The pain that I feel and this loss so hard to grieve
It starts out as a dull ache as you hear the news
That your unborn child you are about to lose
Everything hits you at once, you don’t know what to do
You cry out and tell them to instead take you
You do what you can, then you fight til the end
Then heaven-wards your baby’s soul will be sent
You pray for one last miracle as this all goes down
Then the baby’s gone and you make tears from a frown
And as your baby ascends, it takes with it your heart
And you feel like you’re left empty and torn apart
My dear unborn angel babe
In the grave you have been laid
Even though we’re not together
You will be in my heart forever
I love you to this very day
And in my heart you’ll stay
Now go on and fly away
And keep lighting my way
You’re sent home empty-handed with empty arms
You wonder what you did to cause your baby harm
You feel guilt, feel ashamed as you cry all night
You feel angry, feel hurt, against the darkness you fight
Sometimes you wonder why you couldn’t join your child
Sometimes you feel crazy and like going wild
There is no greater pain than losing your spawn
It doesn’t matter how far you were along
You look at your photos and have trouble letting go
You feel deprived and have never felt so low
You have trouble watching pregnant women walking by
You can’t look at babies and you just want to die
I love you and I miss you
In my heart you rule
A moment in my tummy
But I’ll forever be your mommy
I know you’re watching over me
I’m being as strong as I can be
I promise I’ll make you proud
I know you’ll be cheering loud
It’s hard to face the questions wondering if it’s true
No one seems to understand the turmoil inside you
Sometimes you want to scream and sometimes you cry
Sometimes you feel like life is passing you by
You look down and your belly is no longer round
When you go to the doctor no heartbeat can be found
Can’t hear children crying, you can’t stand the sound
As your baby’s body rests cold in the ground
You remember that time is the key that heals all
You got to hold on even when you’re about to fall
You’re not sure who to talk to and not sure where to go
Your child is in a better place and wants you to know
Mommy I can hear you
Mommy, know I love you
I promise it’s alright now
You’ve got to survive somehow
I’m watching you mommy so be good
And come meet me like you should
I miss you mommy, but just know
That I’ll meet you when it’s time for you to go.
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