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yeah i know that feeling the feeling of pain, i also and my life is already gone to hell no friends, noone who is special to me i i think i am incapable of likeing someone to that extent and don't worry i'm not the type to lable or juge people. people who do that well they are just brainless igoramisisses, morons i think i lose everything my chance to have someone that is special, i had a chance but like a moron i gave up even though he thought of me as his special spmeone but i am loyal to my frineds and neither of us had the heart to hurt my ex-closest friend and now i can't talk to either of them and i don't want to because one of them betrayed me and that is one reson why my heart is locked away... it wants to have someone special but i won't let it just out of fear... i i can't do that again not to my heart it is my closest friend now but even it seems so distant...

I dont love or let anyone get too close to me ... I reallly hate it but thats how I protect my heart its not fun but its something to keep me from being reallly stupid again. I hate to be hurt so the only one with a key to the chamber I locked my heart in is me. I will never ever trust anyone with hte key again I will never again trust with all my heart but only very little. As little as possable. My heart is sacred so I mussent make the mistake of falling for someone again... I must be smart and tresure my heart...