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Anyone who can't tolerate others for what they are. If people are a different colour, sex, sexuality, race or religion - that's who they are, if they aren't hurting you ... why would you want to hurt them?

I'm just lost



I've learned not to trust, not to hold anything dear



Everything I own and like, gets broken



Anyone I come to love, moves away



Any pets I have, die



I wasn't born in this country, no one asked me if I wanted to move here, I wasn't important enough



It's easier to stay inside myself, to trust me, I won't let me down and I will always be there as long as I need me



I am who I am, I don't need to be different



I let others live their lives, I hope they will do the same for me



I don't try and change others, I hope they won't try and change me

I curled on the floor, all on my own

In this crowded playground, I was really alone

What hurt wasn't the bruises or cuts that would mend

What hurt was the hate that poured from my friend

I was always scared in this big wide world

Day after day in my bed I lay curled

I felt so different, so apart from my peers

I felt so alone, with no-one to talk of my fears



I've been prodded and probed and told I am gifted

The help stopped right there as their attention got shifted

They forgot I need help, not some better school

They say 'for the best' well duh I'm no fool



I DO like my school, to study and learn

but I want to be helped while my life takes its turn

They think thats its good as my free time I cram

They think that its great, I will pass that exam



Can't they see that I am scared to have time to remember

To have it all flare up, lit by some ember

some thought from the past, too awful to bear

Scared to plunge again in the depths of despair



The experts had failed, really missed the plot

They ignored what I said and just nodded a lot

I turned to my friends who couldn't understand

the problems that I had, before I came to the their land



They sensed I was different, they feared the unknown

They poked fun and they teased, I was once again alone

I turned to the net, despite all the dangers

The experts had failed me so why not try strangers?



I just never confuse the net with things in real life

I say keep them apart and avoid all the strife

Life on the net is fun and can't really be beat

Just keep them apart and never have them meet



I flitted and I moved, the entire web to roam

Desparate I was to find myself a home

Then, quite by chance, I clicked on a link

and I found a site that really made me think



I was simply accepted, a warm welcome really there

Few people tried to judge me, some really seemed to care

I soon became a mosquito, It's no big deal I know

but I was so proud and happy, new feeling began to show



I set my sights to be a Ghoul, its strange I can admit that

I also played a contest to search this site for a bat

I bounced around the site a lot and then, quite by chance,

There was plea for profile help, that I just happened to glance



I gave the guy the help he needed, and went to his profile to rate

Stab666 had seen my deed, well do you believe in fate?

The next I knew he messaged me with an invite to this house

I read and reread what he wrote, I trembled like mouse



The House Eternal was invite only, they tried to get the best

I felt so proud, so wanted, I had been chosen from the rest

That day was one I will remember, I also achieved my Ghoul

I did two great things on that day, oh my it was so cool



I showed my foster parents, just what I had managed to do

They smiled, they nodded, they did their best but really had no clue

It did not matter, it really didn't, I had simply found my place here

I'm gonna make online friends a lot, well to me that much is clear



I'm going to stop this poem now, before I start to cry

You probably aren't interested but I'm going to tell you why

My foster dad has a PayPal thing, if his password he can remember

Once he got all that sorted out - I'm going be a premium member !