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back to where i once was,well actually were i use to always be at.

everyone one around me gets to be happy while i cruble no one sees me falling and braking into little tinny pieces of confetti, slowly just to be swept away like i never exzisted.

im fading back and i dont want to,

why put me though all of this so i can help everyone else gain things in life they need or want and then myself be left to pick up the pieces from the pain.

its not fair.let me just die and never come back take my life please let me for once be happy. everytime i start to even get a little happy it gets takin from me like im not woth having nice and plesant feeling like others.

i cant breath much longer;i cant speek much longer;i cant even see me no longer.

i feel like i should just end it all,but something always stops me.pulls me back,not letting me go.just to drag me some more,till im back here again feeling the same way.i dont want to feel

pain.

i dont want a splintered heart that wont patch up that bleeds a drop every day that no one sees.

till one day i wont have a heart.

i believe i will grow clod and distant and run away and one day ask a stranger if i payed them all the money i had,would they please just shoot me in the head or the heart and let my suffering end?!