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Hear voices in my head

They come to me

They understand

They tell me things that I will do

They talk to me, they talk to me!

You got your rules and your religion

All designed to keep you safe

But when rules start getting broken

You start questioning your faith

I have a voice that is my savior

Hates to love and loves to hate

I have the voice that has the knowledge

And the power to rule your fate

I see darkness falling

I hear voices calling

I feel justice crawling

I see faith has fallen...

I don't think you willever fully understandhow you've touched my lifeand made me who I am.



I don't think you could ever knowjust how truly special you arethat even on the darkest nightsyou are my brightest star.



I don't think you will ever fully comprehendhow you've made my dreams come trueor how you've opened my heartto love and the wonders it can do.



You've allowed me to experiencesomething very hard to findunconditional love that existsin my body, soul, and mind.



I don't think you could ever feelall the love I have to giveand I'm sure you'll never realizeyou've been my will to live.



You are an amazing personand without you I don't know where I'd be.Having you in my lifecompletes and fulfills every part of me.







Day by dayNight by nightKiss by kissTouch by touchStep by stepI fall in loveA love so incomprehensibleSo vividSo uniqueSo wild, that not even the reign of God could controlA passion so deepA need so necessaryA want so strongThe universe would not handleI love you todayI’ll love you tomorrowI’ll love you forever







For The First Time



Into my worldof darkness and silence,you brought light and music.



When you lit my candle,I began to see and understandthe taste and texture of love.



For the first time.







Dreams



I dream of your touch while you are away,I dream of your smile all through the day,I remember the day,You came into my life,I dream of the day I will be your wife.



I dream of the day I can fall asleep next to you,I dream of the day I can say I do.To be your wife,To be together for life,Is a dream I have,Every night.









A Wish



I lie on the ground,and stare into space,the stars start to move,into the shape of your face.



I see you there now,looking down at me,with that cute little smile,that I like to see.



You say "close your eyes","tell me what you see",I see only two people,just you and me.



We're walking the shoreline,with our feet getting wet,the horizon turns pink,as the sun starts to set.



We make love through the night,on that white sandy shore,then I hold you while thinking,I could want nothing more.



Oh I wish I could be,in that one special place,as I lie on the ground,and I stare into space..







A Love For All Time



Breathless kissesBurning touchesSoft-spoken words of loveUrgently spoken words of passion.A man and a womanOne complete loveSince time beganPredestined to be as one.We've been together beforeIn other lifetimesWe've fought dragonsAnd have been torn from each others armsYet our love prevailed.We've walked on this earth many times togetherPerhaps for a momentPerhaps for yearsBut our heart is one heartAnd we were meant to be.So when our time on earthOnce again comes to a closeHave no worries my dearFor we will find each other againAnd againAnd again.For our love is agelessEternalA love for all time.

"The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you." I been sayin' that shit for years. And if you ever heard it, it meant your ass. I never really questioned what it meant. I thought it was just a cold-blooded thing to say to a motherfucker before you popped a cap in his ass. But I saw some shit this mornin' made me think twice. Now I'm thinkin': it could mean you're the evil man. And I'm the righteous man. And Mr. .45 here, he's the shepherd protecting my righteous ass in the valley of darkness. Or it could be you're the righteous man and I'm the shepherd and it's the world that's evil and selfish. I'd like that. But that shit ain't the truth. The truth is you're the weak. And I'm the tyranny of evil men. But I'm tryin, Ringo. I'm tryin' real hard to be the shepherd.

Dark cold nightWhen the wild animals fightWhen there is no lightThe full moon is white



Look aboveTo the singing white doveCold dark nightGet ready to fight



Black nightNothing is ever brightOnly the full moonGet ready to swoon



Vampires and WherewolvesKilling each otherThroughout the nightScreaming and blood



Oh dark cold nightHow your terrorSends chillsThrough my spine



Fearful eyesGet readyLittle oneTo die











In her wake she runs from beasts in her dreams demented,to break free from fetters of darkness. The ever growing darkness that clouds the mind and entraps the heart.



Coming cross a trail with sorrow laden, red pebbles of tears to step upon, that crack beneath the feet of fleeing maiden.



The wind screams, echoing a young maiden's voice,chilling her fearful and mortal flesh. Trees like half decayed corpses or skeletons arch over her and leaves like rotting flesh fall to the ground.



Always seeking and never finding, she carries on hiding from the demons that lurk and nightmares that follow in shadows residing.



The path ends at a river of blood, too thick to run with ease over jagged rocks now ebbs at the bank, encroaching on her feet, Awaiting her crimson fate.



Between waking and sleeping tormented,By menacing roots of wilted decay, reaching out to its prey,Fleeing, from this road grim and foul scented.



At the center of madness, the clearing waits, and there she stood still;A field of white dipped in the burning light, from the night's celestial queen. With closed eyes she starts to dance and twirl in the ashes.











I kiss the glass,

And feel the cold

I tear open my heart

The ill and the weary thing

Beats weakly, with a sorrowful resonance

And inside its ill-fitting cage

Weary water and tinged red milk

Move swiftly, lapping at the shallow shores of conscience

It is there, where you are

Queen of spiders and other killing things

The Witching Hour is your domain

And as frozen, gut wrenching breaths tear from my inner sanctuary,

I struggle to see a perfect forest of trees

In splintered glass and torn up paper

And like the foolish Prince

I ask

Is it to be?

And silence echoes my reply

"Hush now. Hush!

You'll only work up that sleeping beast

And only blood will tame this beast"

So I sit, waiting

And waiting

And waiting

Hoping for a reprieve of my own devising

Yet

My mind traps me

Like so many wolves and other horrid things

I dream

Oh lord,

Do I dream

Crying skies and drops of blood

And witches brews and mashed up bugs

And little girls and full grown men

"Stop!"

She screams, that evil queen

"You'll only make me cry!"

And to give into her would be the birthing of new light

But I refrain, I hold back

And I allow her a moments silence

To mourn the pretty princess gowns

And little tiaras made of thorns

And pink gloves of cult thoughts

Then I bid goodbye,

Like I have before

And exit through my dreaming's door

And let out the musty air

That choked my lungs and made me gag

Then I'm here again

I'm lonely and defeated and torn limb from limb

I hate, I beg

I feel myself caving in

Back to me, the Ugly Beauty

And when I wake

I will wish to dream,

Evermore,

And though I'm far off now,

I promise

I will return









Oh, the night

The night when sound

Ceased to matter

When the angels cried

And devils screamed

I am haunted by ghosts

Ripping at my skin

And tugging at my clothes

Oh, sweet nectar

Lull me to sleep

Let me dream

Not of ghouls

But of shining princes

And corn-silk braided hair

With glass slippers and

Carriages, drawn by 12 coal black mares

Be still,

My fluttering heart

Banging broken fists against

Marrow and deceit

A cage filled with roses and bloody tulips

Be silent, be still

Quit your useless cries

Allow grey matter to decide

My fate

My own blood

On my own hands

Drips, drips, drips

Silently down

Into shoes filled with rice

And checkered floors,

White and black and pristine

Oh god,

Their bloody now

Drowning in a sea of sticky,

Copper

Pain, pain, pain

Hush my sobbing skin

Speak my silent throat

Let this night never end

For if it does

You’ll only go back to

The false bravado

And calla lilies with green petals

And silent movies

With obvious innuendos

That thought disgusts you

Doesn’t it?

It makes me feel sick

That thought

It truly does

Oh, quiet now

Quiet

Listen to my breath in the eaves

We are lost

Babes in the woods

Helpless and frightened

We run like children

Away, away, away

Ah, silence once more

Thank you clarity

Thank you moon

Good night

Good bye

Good luck





Cries of longing for your touch,In dreams and nightmares,Desire and lust,I wait in darkness,For you are my release,Among pools of blood,Wounds of my heart,My companions,Suffering and pain,Full of desire,For consumption,To kiss you again,You are my lifeblood,You are my soul in peace,Reward for my torture.







RomeoOh, RomeoLips slick with witches brewsTongue twisted with falsified promiseLover of death, Hater of truth For the one who sings the praises of man,For the one who tricked loveImpish creatureBeautiful lieYou think you know existence,When all you really know is Pretentious loveStanding below her windowYou scream out You trick You takeRomeo, RomeoWhy are you Romeo?You are tongue,You are throat You are not real For what you feel Is naught but lustHungry lips, Hungry eyes,Delicious liesDelicately spun wordsWith good intentions in handYou smite the longevity of loveBe making a second long decision,And mouthing sweet poetryYou lap up spilt tearsLike a dog,Like a snakeYou’re sure that its loveYou know it to be trueBut your truth is falseYour logic flawedYour words mean nothingWithout weight to back them upYou flutter, a wingless being From flower to lovely flowerYou sip nectar But never appreciateThe true taste Oh, Romeo Forever in precarious sinLet your heart guide youAnd take the life from your chest





On my knees back at the beginning Finally realized theres no end After years of running into your arms You've proven less than a friend



A carefully crafted escape A momentary relief And in the end you've done nothing but miscalculate my grief



Catapulted into another world Where the clouds catch my fall But then you turn on me And I'm responsible for it all



You leave me hopeless again And without you I'm crying Searching for some strength To keep me trying To keep my soul from dying



Im already dead Can't get you outta my head Or the nasty things they said



Can't quiet the voices Can't take back my choices You leave me lifeless What a crisis ...I've got no one to call but you





My eyes are tired, don't want to close them.'Cause if I do, I know I'll break down.The light in them is starting to grow dimand yet I'm still so tightly wound.



My body hurts, still I move on.My heart gets faster with every beat.I wonder, will I make it to dawn?No one knows so I retreat.



Running on the inside, I trip and fall; I feel the pain scourge through.I miss my sanity most of alland realize there is nothing left to do.



So when I fall, I don't try to stop;everything slows in pace.I just let my body dropand feel relief spread across my face.



I lie in the dark, cold and alone,thinking about how I don't care.The meaning in this is still unknownand try to decipher, I do not dare.



I shed a tear and close my eyes;I let myself crumble apart.I feel a piece inside of me dieand knowing this breaks my hear





Wish I could hate, not lovethat which I do not know the meaning ofIt calls to me each and everydayand still I want it to go away



but deep inside I would regret that day.



The meaning evades me, still and sure.It brings about a pain for which there is no cure.It also stays hidden from those who tryto answer the question, the reason why.



I say they're wrong, they say I lie.



And so, this part of my life goes oncontinuing mercilessly 'til I wish it gone.Yet no matter how much I wish it away, I recognize this as the price I must pay



to elude those around me everyday.







My soul can't be stainedAnd death is ashamedBecause of meMy skin freezes iceAnd the blood you shed makes my eyes





Tasting these lipsCan you feel me on your fingertipsAlready dead?





You askedThe dewy tears of the grassWhyBut Heaven doesn't have an answer for youAnd peace is a lieYou walk away or runIt doesn't make any differenceNot really





Kissing me, with, and, your despairCan you feel me entangled with your hairAlready dead?





You asked the blueGhosting the white of my eyesWhyBut their perfect drynessSpeaksThe nothingness





Panting into my throatCan you feel me under your ownAlready dead?







I sit alone in my room,Quietly on my bedWatching the hours pass



When night falls,I still sit;I have no one.



I move to my window to watch the people pass,I can hear them laugh;No one stops.



My window is a two way mirror,I am always looking out;No one bothers to look back.



Monday comesI walk to schoolPeople pass without a glance.



School goes by without a hitchNo interference from the outside worldNo contact



Tuesday passes without interruptionWednesday Thursday FridayThe same



So the weekend comesAnd here I sitWatching everyone pass my two way mirror



Maybe I will find someone someday to sit with meUntil then I watch the hours passAlone







I feel it press in on me now.Cowering at its' feet, I bow.Placing a finger at my jaw,explaining how I owe it awe.To its' forceful grasp, I succumb.It holds me tightly 'til I go numb.Letting go when I can't feel anymore;hurting me worse than ever before.I can't remember my life before it,before I fell in its' emotionless pit,before it lured me to the edge.Now to it, everything I pledge.Even when it leaves, it still watches.It has me locked in with bolts and latches.It tells me this is where I belong.Within its' hold I will never be strong.It owns everything, heart, mind, soul.I idly watch as I play a role.And when I do try to break free,it clutches me tighter 'til I can't see.My body falls limp, motionless in its' hands.Lesson learned, give in to its' demands.When I wake, I am all by myselfdressed in pretty clothes, displayed on its' shelf.I rip and tear the clothes away,"This is not me, not today!"It's angry and crushes me tighter somehow;I pass into oblivion, it's over now.





The Door’s open Wide You’re already GONE Nothing Left NO Surprise

Venom spit out No Remorse Empty Promises Never Kept No Surprise

Hopes and Dreams Falling apart at the seams Life’s Lessons Never Learned Only to repeat again and again No Surprise



Where did you go?

My one true love

Almost, it seems

A century ago.



Your smile

And embrace

I still retain

In a memory

No one shall ever

Erase.



Years exceed

The passing of time

Experiences of many

Yet no one

Could ever

Take the place

Of one

Who was

All mine.