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It seems like

Out of nowhere

I'm coming apart

Nothing could've saved me

You went straight for my heart



When I've almost had enough

Something about you draws me back again

When I've almost given up

Something about you pulls me in

And we're falling



Feels like

I am reaching

Tryin' to hold on to you

And I know that

There's still hope here

And I know you'll come through



When I've almost had enough

Something about you draws me back again

When I've almost given up

Something about you pulls me in

And we're falling



When I've almost had enough

When I've almost given up

We start falling

And we're falling

You never looked so good

as you did last night,

underneath the city lights,

there walking with your friend,

laughing at the moon.

I swear you looked right through me.

But I’m still living with your goodbye,

and you’re just going on with your life.

How can you just walk on by

without one tear in your eye?

Don’t you have the slightest feelings left for me?

Maybe that’s just your way

of dealing with the pain,

forgetting everything

between our rise and fall

like we never loved at all.

You, I hear you’re doing fine.

Seems like you’re doing well

as far as I can tell.

Time is leaving us behind,

another week has passed

and still I haven’t laughed yet.

So tell me, what your secret is

to letting go, letting go like you did,

like you did.

How can you just walk on by

without one tear in your eye?

Don’t you have the slightest feelings left for me?

Maybe that’s just your way

of dealing with the pain,

forgetting everything

between our rise and fall

like we never loved at all.

and did you ever miss me,

and long to kiss me?

Maybe that’s just your way

of dealing with the pain,

forgetting everything

between our rise and fall

like we never loved at all.

You're not sure that you love me

But you're not sure enough to let me go

it ain't fair, you know

To just keep me hanging round

You say you don't wanna hurt me

Don't wanna see my tears

So why are you still standing here

Just watching me drown



And it's all right, I'll be fine

Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine

Just take your love and hit the road

There's nothing you can do or say

You're gonna break my heart anyway

So just leave the pieces when you go



Now you can drag out the heartache

you can make it quick

Really get it over with

An' just let me move on

Don't concern yourself

With this mess you left for me

I can clean it up you see

Just as long as you're gone



And it's all right, yeah, I'll be fine

Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine

Just take your love and hit the road

There's nothing you can do or say

You're gonna break my heart anyway

So just leave the pieces when you go

You not making up your mind is killin' me

You're wasting time

I need so much more then that



And it's all right, yeah, I'll be fine

Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine

Just take your love and hit the road

There's nothing you can do or say

You're gonna break my heart anyway

So just leave the pieces when you go

Leave the pieces when you go

Leave the pieces when you go

Leave the pieces when you go

I feel chained, chained down

You shove me to the ground

I can't run, I can't shout

Just let me out

Your so heartless. This couldn't meanless

But I'll push it in your face

I'm only human

And i've got something to say

Let me rise

Let me fall

Let me breathe

I wanna lose control

I'm not afraid to lose it all

Let me break

Let me crawl

Cuz I'll get back up again if you let me fall

If i burn down in this fire well i got myself to blame

I can't stop or give it up i need to feel the pain

Can you hear me?

Don't come near me

You'll just get in my way

I'm only human and there's nothin you can say

Let me rise

Let me fall

Let me breathe

I wanna lose control

I'm not afraid to lose it all

Let me break

Let me crawl

Cuz I will get back up again if you let me fall

I said you know I'm up when I'm down

And you'll understand if I feel right

And live my own life

Let me rise

Let me fall

Let me breathe

I wanna lose control

I'm not afraid to lose it all

Let me break

Let me crawl

Cuz I will get back up again if you let me fall

I drift away to a place

Another kind of life

Take away the pain

I create my paradise

Everything I've held

Has hit the wall

What used to be yours

Isn't yours at all

Falling apart, and all that I'm asking

Is a crime, am I overreacting

Oh, he's under my skin

Just give me something to get rid of him

I've got a reason now to bury this alive

Another little white lie

What you had didn't fit

Among the pretty things

But never fear, never fear

I now know where you've been

Braids have been un-tied

Ribbons fall away

Leave the consequence

But my tears you'll taste

Falling apart and all that I question

Is this a dream or is this my lesson

Oh, he's under my skin

Just give me something to get rid of him

I've got a reason now to bury this alive

Another little white lie

I don't believe I'll be alright

I don't believe I'll be ok

I don't believe how you throw me away

I do believe you didn't try

I do blame you for every lie

When I look in your eyes, I don't see mine

Oh, he's under my skin

Just give me something to get rid of him

I've got a reason now to bury this alive

Another little white lie

Oh my permission to sin

You might have started my reckoning

I've got a reason now to bury him alive

Another little white lie

I can't find a reason to let go

Even though you've found a new love

And she's what your dreams are made of

I can find a reason to hang on

What went wrong can be forgiven

Without you it ain't worth livin' alone

Sometimes I wake up crying at night

And sometimes I scream out your name

What right does she have to take you away

When for so long you were mine

I took out all the pictures of

you and me

It was a time of love and laughter

Happy ever after

But even those old pictures have

Begun to fade

Please tell me she's not real

And that you're really coming home to stay

Sometimes I wake up crying at night

And sometimes I scream out your name

What right does she have to take your heart away

When for so long you were mine

I can give you two good reasons

To show you love's not blind

Everyone thought of us as a couple of good times.

So how can I tell them you've changed

Your mind

Sometimes I wake up crying at night

And sometimes I scream out your name

What right does she have to take your heart away

When for so long you were mine

I remember when you were mine

waitin' on the sun to set cause yesterday aint over yet

He started smoking cigarettes there's nothing else to do I guess

Dusty roads aint made for walking, spinning tires aint made for stoppin'

I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me



I gave it everything I had and everything I got was bad

Life aint hard but it's too long to live it like some stupid song

Trade the truth in for a lie, cheating really aint a crime

I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me



Forget you high society, I'm soakin' it in Kerosene

Light 'em up and watch them burn, teach them what they need to learn

Dirty hands aint made for shakin', aint a rule that aint worth breakin'

Well I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me



Now I don't hate the one who left

You can't hate someone who's dead

He's out there holding on to someone, I'm holding up my smoking gun

I'll find somewhere to lay my blame the day she changes her last name

Well I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me

Well I'm giving up on love because love's given up on me

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,

"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,

I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to criticize,

Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button, girl.

So cradle your head in your hands

And breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss

"Just a Day", he said down to the flask in his fist,

"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."

Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,

But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,

Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.

No one can find the rewind button, boys,

So cradle your head in your hands,

And breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,

You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out

And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again

If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song

If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,

Threatening the life it belongs to

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd

Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button now

Sing it if you understand.

and breathe

I want him but he don't want me, .

He wants somebody else that I can't be.

And she's got a man that she wants to leave,

'Cause he can't seem to make her happy.

Does it have to be wrong to make it feel right?

Tell me why isnt anyone satisfied?

Old man lookin' a photograph,

Of a love that's long gone from his past.

And his wife's got a letter that she can't read,

From a boy who never came back from the sea.

All these secrets or lies we keep deep inside

Does it have to be wrong to make it feel right?

Tell me why there isnt anyone satisfied?

See that man walkin' down the street,

Yeah, what are the odds, he's the one for me?

An' what if I pass him by an' he's got the love I need?

Tell me why there isnt anyone satisfied?

I want him but he don't want me, .

He wants somebody else that I can't be.

And she's got a man that she wants to leave,

'Cause he can't seem to make her happy.

See that man walkin' down the street,

what are the odds, he's the one for me?

An' what if I pass him by an' he's got the love I need?

It's funny that way, you can get used

To the tears and the pain

What a child will believe

You never loved me

You can't hurt me now

I got away from you, I never thought I would

You can't make me cry, you once had the power

I never felt so good about myself

Seems like yesterday

I lay down next to your boots and I prayed

For your anger to end

I have sinned

Oh Father you never wanted to live that way

You never wanted to hurt me

Why am I running away

Maybe someday

When I look back I'll be able to say

You didn't mean to be cruel

Somebody hurt you too

I slammed the door a thousand times

What's mine is mine, what's yours is mine

It's a long drive uphill

Sit back I'm takin' the wheel

So many highs, so many lows

You move too quick to ever show

Exactly how you feel

So I'm takin' the wheel

Everybody says it can't be done

We drive each other crazy

but you're still the one

You make it hard to stay, harder to run

You and me we're quite a pair

We make a mess out of thin air

You know I love you still

But I'm takin' the wheel

Everybody says it can't be done

We drive each other crazy

But you're still the one

You make it hard to stay, harder to run

It's a knock-down, drag-out fight

Tongue-tied and twisted we can go all night

You're comin' with me and here's the deal

Baby, slide on over, I'm takin' the wheel

So many roads we're left to take

So much history to make

We bend but we don't break

Everybody says it can't be done

We drive each other crazy

But you're still the one (still the one)

You make it hard to stay, harder to run

It's a knock-down drag-out fight

Tongue-tied and twisted we can go all night

You're comin' with me and here's the deal

And leavin' this crazy tug-of-war

Only makes me want you more

You're comin' with me that's how I feel

Baby, slide on over, I'm takin' the wheel

I slammed the door a thousand times

What's mine is mine, what's yours is mine

It's a long drive uphill

Sit back I'm takin' the wheel

Jenny's got a job, a cat named Jake,

31 candles on her birthday cake

Next year

Thought by now she'd have a man

Two car seats and a minivan

But it still ain't here (hey!)

She's been lookin' for Mr. Right so long

But all she's found is Mr. Wrong

That's the pitts

She's drawn a line that she won't cross

Her and time are facing off

She says something's gotta give

Chorus

Something's gotta give me butterflies

Something's gotta make me feel alive

Something's gotta give me dreams at night

Something's gotta make me feel alright

I don't know where it is

But something's gotta give

Friday night she had a date

Cell phone junky a half hour late

That's the biz baby

She's riding out the twists of fate

She's had all that she can take

She says something's gotta give

(repeat chorus)

I swear

There's got to be a meant to be for me out there

Somewhere someday

I'm gonna find someone, somehow, someway

Jenny's got a job, a cat named Jake,

31 candles on her birthday cake

Next year

She thought by now she'd have a man

Two car seats and a minivan

She says something's got,

Something's got,

Something's gotta

Brace yourself child, you've allowed yorself to become suicidal. Not by bullet or drug, but by the pure aching of love. You've allowed yourself to get caught up, clinging to him for help. He's not going to do anything, Darling. Its just another trick. Brace yourself, Beautiful, you know whats going to happen, you know of his intentions and yet you beg for more. Darling, i will pray for you and forever more. You've allowed yourself to one day die a tragic death, not by suffocation or the horrid blow of meth, but by the clenching of the heart, the blood soaking into the ground, your eyes filled with those heartbroken tears. I'm going to warn you, and warn you once, brace yourself, Child, it wont be easy. When he breaks you, promise me and yourself you wont give up.

Brace yourself child, you've allowed yorself to become suicidal. Not by bullet or drug, but by the pure aching of love. You've allowed yourself to get caught up, clinging to him for help. He's not going to do anything, Darling. Its just another trick. Brace yourself, Beautiful, you know whats going to happen, you know of his intentions and yet you beg for more. Darling, i will pray for you and forever more. You've allowed yourself to one day die a tragic death, not by suffocation or the horrid blow of meth, but by the clenching of the heart, the blood soaking into the ground, your eyes filled with those heartbroken tears. I'm going to warn you, and warn you once, brace yourself, Child, it wont be easy. When he breaks you, promise me and yourself you wont give up.

haven't you just wanted to break all

the mirrors in your house because

you can't stand looking at yourself

anymore? but you know it's useless,

cause what hurts the most is everyone

else's opinion, & they don't need a

mirror to see you..

You can be my;;

H o p e l e s s--R o m a n a t i c

&&

I can be your;;

C l a s s i c--D i s a s t e r

she wipes her running mascara from her eyes

as she looks into the broken mirror && whispers

to herself " i'm never gonna be good enough

& she slammed the door, closed the windows & blasted the music so nobody could hear her cry herself to sleep.

i'm a mess & my room usually is too. i laugh at the stupidest things, and say the wrong* thing at the wrong times. i cry for no reason. sometimes i get mad easily. but i'm just me & ****that's all i can be

she has everything and more

yet she still breaks down in tears at night

i guess there really is more then meets the eye

she knew she could never be good enough...

but for some reason -- she tried any way...

What makes you stand out

is what makes you different. What

makes you different is what makes

you beautiful.

they ignore each other

&& look the other way

but they both know

deep down inside, that it

wasnt supposed to end this way..

& shes so good

at covering up

her tears

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's

So fitting, so fitting of the way you are

You can't cover it up

Can't cover it up

she's an artist
a good painter actually

see that smile on her face

its her most famous piece

people ask me if i believe in forever

and i can't help but sit back and laugh

because with the way my life's going ;;

i dont even believe in tomorrow

I've always been the easy kill

I guess I always will

I woke up today& wished for tomorrow

I don't want to even be myself

as I climb this ladder now it is certain I will fall

God he must be deaf because he never heard me call

You don't know what lies inside

& you never want to see.

Just remember when you think you're free;

the crack inside your fucking heart is me

I've got nothing to live for

only to stay as another victim

I've got love songs in my head

that are killing us away

suicide is painless. it brings on

many changes. that I can

 take or leave if I please

some days I cry alone, but

I know I'm not the only one

my random thoughts...that are all true... and if your a good problem solver there mostly about you.

love can be good and love can be bad

looking across that blank desert

wondering what happened...

thinking, dreaming, wishing, hoping

that something, just something

would go right again



your drinking would stop

the fighting no more

you might stop wishing

and you would start living

not in fright

but in your dream...

your dream...

your dream...

she'd come back

and she'd forgive you

she'd bring the baby

and the dog too

your life would come back

and your worries gone

your life would be perfect like in a song

Almost made you love me

Almost made you cry

Almost made you happy, baby

Didn't I didn't I

You almost had me thinkin'

You were turned around

But everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



Almost heard you saying

You were finally free

What was always missing for you, baby

You'd found it in me

But you can't get to heaven

Half off the ground

Everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



I can't keep on lovin' you

One foot outside the door

I hear a funny hesitation

Of a heart that's never really sure

Can't keep on tryin'

If you're looking for more

Than all that I could give you

Than what you came here for



Gonna find me somebody

Not afraid to let go

Want a no doubt be there kind of man

You came real close

But everytime you built me up

You only let me down

And everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



Maybe you'll be sorry

Maybe you'll be cold

Maybe you'll come runnin' back, baby

From the cruel cruel world

Almost convince me

You're gonna stick around

But everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



So maybe I'll be here

Maybe I'll see ya 'round

That's the way it goes

Almost doesn't count



k i wrote that down again sophie yourwelcome

Almost made you love me

Almost made you cry

Almost made you happy, baby

Didn't I didn't I

You almost had me thinkin'

You were turned around

But everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



Almost heard you saying

You were finally free

What was always missing for you, baby

You'd found it in me

But you can't get to heaven

Half off the ground

Everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



I can't keep on lovin' you

One foot outside the door

I hear a funny hesitation

Of a heart that's never really sure

Can't keep on tryin'

If you're looking for more

Than all that I could give you

Than what you came here for



Gonna find me somebody

Not afraid to let go

Want a no doubt be there kind of man

You came real close

But everytime you built me up

You only let me down

And everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



Maybe you'll be sorry

Maybe you'll be cold

Maybe you'll come runnin' back, baby

From the cruel cruel world

Almost convince me

You're gonna stick around

But everybody knows

Almost doesn't count



So maybe I'll be here

Maybe I'll see ya 'round

That's the way it goes

Almost doesn't count

"I long for love like Jamie and Zack have...true love.



I had Zack once, he was all mine, but we only had one thing in our hearts at that time...

and that was lust.

and hate...which none of that adds to be like zack and jamies love of truth.



So i sit back and take there picture and look at there true love and wonder why am i so blue?"



this is what i put in my portfolio on zack and jamie...yea im screwed up...but i think i'll put this in poetry...

I can't imagine how hard it must be to be you

Adopting all your history it's hard being me too

Are your secrets where you left them? cause now your ghosts are mine as well

I think it's time I met them and I think it's time you tell

And you should have told me when you met me all these things I should know

And I should have asked we should have talked about this so long ago

Now we share the closet, now you've let me come inside

And now you're finally undressing and I feel like I might die

The damage is infectious, the confession is too late

And how can I accept this? How is this happening to me?

It's not fair, it's not fair, and don't leave me here

Oh How's this happening to me? It feels so lonely here



yea i am screwed up but better than i've been in a long time so all in all im okay!!!

so josh called me a few. i wouldve ignored it but i dont have caller id...yet i knew who it was.



its so hard to love someone that you know your suppose to hate.



i love josh becuase he supposingly loves me, he seems to understands me better than anyone else could or would, and becuase i known him for so long.



i hate joshua rutz becuase he's a prep, he's mean to me, he cheats on me, and i hate him for not being there and abandoning me for other girls in my grade.



the sweet taste of hate has spilled in with my taste for love and with that i cant understand, how am i going to fix someone who isnt broken...like me?

how am i going to tell someone to go when i dont want them to leave?

these are question that i must ask myself to live...but yet my question to you is how i save myself when i've already been rescued?

i have no more strength to pick up the blade. nor do i have strength to numb the pain by getting high or drunk. so i write.

i write becuase of what i've gone through

i write becuase of what i know im going to go through.

and most importantly i write to get all of your intention...

yet i still have none.

heres a poem i just made up

the flames of old, burning ember

the times of new in which we can remember

red night skies

and your diamond eyes



try not to go without the thoughts

the memories of which u have lots

think of the times u have shared

the times u have laughed and cared

the love you hold

and the times of cold



you may go to a better place

one thing remains here, your beautiful face

that smile you gave to so few

has affected lives an eternity through



so when u leave dont be sad

or hurt or lonely or mad

just smile that perfect smile

and we will all soon join you

in just a short while.