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everytime when i try to sleep in my room all pitch black. in the same corner i heard a growl in my sleep in when i woke up from that dream it was the same growl. no dogs with me, door closed, nothing there. from that coner i feel like i'm being watched by something bad. one night me and my friend was in my room. we heard a thud. we went to my brothers room and saw his computer on the floor. to get to my room you had to pass his. his computer was on the futon next to him away from the edge and he would have felt someone push it off. he woke up and yelled at me, but we told him we didn't do it. then after he moved out. me and my same friend spent the night in his room. we felt something touch our feet like a breze of cold air, but we had out feet covered with the blanket. so that was imposable. a few minutes after we heard banging on the wall. on the other side is an intertament center and theres only room for a mouse to go between the wall and the intertament center. my mom told us to stop banging. we told her it wasn't us. every where my mom goes she smells cig smoke. i'm an ex smoker so she knows its not me. my step-mom died this June and she was a smoker. i think its her. when we first moved in my new home i was sitting in a chair closer to the tv. i felt it breathing with me. once i got up and saw it breathing. me and my friend think theres something in my home. but we don't know. what do you think it is? Ghost of some one needing help, Demon, Angel, or a Desiste Family Member

no one looks at my Journal anymore. It kinda hurts. i wish someone would look read and rate, but no one has for a while. i might as well not write anymore. so this is my last thought that i'll right about. bye

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NLW
00:23 Dec 30 2009

I know the feeling.

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Darkwhispers
00:46 Dec 30 2009

I do too.



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You thinking that i did something to hurt you or betray you hurts. When you blame me for something i don't know or remember feels like knifes stabing my heart, my soul. because of you i think that because of you blaming me i think thats the resion i'm hurting. the resion the pain is coming back. I'm done. i don't want it. just go back to where you came from. i don't want to deal with you anymore. Have you ever thought that the person who told you tricked you? no you assumed she was right. Just burn in hell

i'm just so confused on whats going on. i had an anxiety attack twice now. i cry every night, its like all the pain is coming back to me. the bad pain that i spent years to keep inside. to keep hidden from people. My eyes sting like acid cause theres no tears. Being blamed of what i don't remember. I hate it. i'm getting pissed off about it. i'm always accused for something i didn't do or don't remember doing! I want it to stop! I might die! For years i've been the bad child. then change when i met you. now i'm going back to being bad. i don't hang out with friends like i used to. i don't go to pratice for winter gard. I don't care for anything anymore. i just want to give everything that i worked so hard on up. i might as well fluk my finals or be a no show.