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So Alone
23:32 Sep 10 2019
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Sitting here alone on a dreary day blackened by dark clouds, resting against a large grey tombstone deep in the middle of a unsettling large cemetery, I hear the screams of the damned and see the speckles of orbs flowing through the air as if someone had thrown glitter dust in the strong breeze. Sitting here I got lost in watching these orbs as if they had thrown me in some kind of trance, when I came to, it was then that I realized I am no longer alone. The day has grown to a late evening, more darker than I have ever seen before and standing before me was a figure! So handsome and so alluring that all I could do was stare. I was absolutely motionless, speechless and most of all thoughtless. He stood there and it was that moment when I realized that everything fell silent, no wind nor breeze, no screams of the damned, no sound of birds or animals in general, It was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop in fact.

An unfamiliar scent filled the air and I felt drawn to it, more so I felt drawn to this Man who is standing silently in front of me. I started to regain my composure and all I could think was "what does he need? Is he going to hurt me? Where did he come from? How did he get here and why do I feel these feelings that I have indeed never felt before. I slowly got up from the ground and I felt as if I was in some sort of delusion or that I was dreaming. My legs were weak, my breathing was shallow and my heart was beating faster than it ever has before. Yet, I didn't feel scared nor alarmed by this very alluring man standing quietly in front of me.

I was then stuck pondering what it was that I should do next, should I try to speak to him? should I just attempt to walk away? Should I attempt to even break the silence? Then I was thinking of the consequences of each option, what was I to do with a situation like this? My life has been a life filled with death and dread, abuse, hate, rage, regret and everything else you can imagine that could go wrong so what is the worst that could happen? I have been through it all and a mere death wouldn't be so bad I thought. I cleared my throat and initiated a friendly introduction, hoping that I could break the silence and get this over with because at this point my curiosity was indeed getting the best of me. A few moments had passed and he didn't respond with as much as a hello, he then locked eyes with me and I felt as if my heart started beating at a very unhealthy pace and I got these butterflies in my stomach. At this point I found myself yearning just to hear his voice and to uncover this mystery man and the feelings got more intense the longer his eyes were locked with mine. It got so intense I blurted out "please just talk to me, all this suspense is truly killing me and I can't take it anymore"!

He held out his hand as if to say "take my hand and everything will be alright". I was hesitant at first but then I reached out slowly, gently putting my hand in his. His hand was cold to the touch yet soft and I stood there with my hand in his. I looked up and locked eyes with him again and now I just wanted him to take me into his arms and take me away from all the pain and hurt I have endured throughout my life. He was so gentle with me and still silent, it was starting to drive me mad to be honest because I have developed a longing for this man to give me some answer or absolution.

He then started to lead me hand in hand but to where? What did he have planned? I was so very eager to get answers but something told me to hold on because I was about to find out. Inside I felt a sort of excitement and I was not sure if it was the fact that something new was happening or that I finally have some sort of interaction with this man that I have been yearning to figure out. As he was leading me, I was watching the ground, every step we took, having so many thought racing through my mind. He stopped walking and I was not paying attention to anything but the steps and the ground and I bumped into him and for some reason I giggled a bit until I looked up and saw we was standing in front of a really big mausoleum. There was a coffin inside that looked well kept as if it was just bought the day before, it was so mesmerizing and inviting yet depressing at the same time. Saying this, basically a very big wave of emotions came over me and I was not sure if I was coming or going at this point.

He turns to me whilst holding my hand and said "I can offer you a life filled with most things normal people can't. I can offer you eternal life, love, happiness and most of all a life with no regrets. Only you can make this choice". That moment he spoke, I was speechless!! His voice was that of something most would classify as eternal bliss! That one voice that would make your heart melt and fall into a love coma, something along them lines. I wanted more, I was in a huge ocean of emotions that I never thought I would experience in my lifetime. The main question was why me? What could I have done to be presented with this very opportunity that I only thought existed in fairy-tales? He proceeded to tell me that he has been watching me from a distance, anything and everything I have done, he was there. A normal person would be uncomfortable and aloof yet here I stand feeling overwhelmingly relaxed and content.

I accepted his offer as i felt something deep down in me telling me that everything will finally be okay, that I would no longer have to worry about anything anymore. I started to think "but what do I have to do to be able to live this luxurious he so humbly offered me? I felt no worry or fear and I was very thankful for whatever was about to happen. He then asked me one last time if it was what I really wanted and without a doubt I accepted his offer. I felt as if I had known him my entire life, yet barley known him at the same time. He walks over to me and told me to relax, that this will not take much time. He caresses my face, gently moves my hair and slowly yet gently starts to bite my neck. I close my eyes, wrap my hands around his waist and with every pull he takes, I hold him tighter. I felt so many emotions run through me but the one that stuck out the most was how I had fallen so fast for this man whom I had just met. I had given myself to him in every way possible that evening and I wouldn't change it for the world. That evening, I was in eternal bliss!!
*Writers notes*
So I never wrote stories before and this was my first time ever doing so. I hope it is okay! I mean hey maybe this is part of my life story or part of someone else's life story about me just roles reversed. Tis a mystery yes? Please let me know if this was good, and please most of all, no negativity as well. I don't normally do stuff like this, if at all. I hope it is enjoyable for you guys as it was for me to recall upon such a fond memory. ;) Happy reading guys.