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Well, if you know me or have known me personally, then you know my other health problems, but I'm learning about more of them.



I thought I was just having dreams where I was frozen, because everyone would tell me 'It's just a dream."



Aparently, I really do get frozen... because I can kind of hum/moan to get my husband's attention when I get in the "frozen/unable to move" state. That way he can hold me, talk to me, move me to bring me out of it.



And secondly.... aparently I'm not frozen every time.... sometimes I have siezures.... I just feel as if I'm frozen.



I have sleep paralysis and siezures...

So I have to go to this sleep clinic....

Find out what's wrong...



Here's a poem I found that I can relate to...





POEM (By Jorge Conesa)



Sleep Paralysis



Sleep of day

Sleep of tender

Sleep of me-wolves

Who surrender

To fragments of unimaginable fright.



Sleep of Autumn

Sleep of winded leaves

Sleep of Berserkers drinking

With the me-sages

Pissing moon milk

For others to go mad.



Sleep of tossing

Sleep of flying

Sleep of disappearance

From this world

In the fangs of the shaman of Oblieng.



Sleep of instinct

Sleep without rules

Sleep otherworldly

Sleep of death

Sleep of being awake inside the chambers of one's heart.



Sleep feline

Sleep ancient

Sleep temple

Sleep jade

Like the Olmecs wore jade with jaguar faces.



Sleep of once-a-month

During the new moon

When the owls are silent

When the wind implodes

When the soil goes insane

When the trees carve themselves a grave in my chest.



Sleep of all sleepers

In my head

All whispering at the same time

Their nonsense of yesteryears

Prisoners of their own beds.

Sleep of frozen waters

Sleep of walking alone

In the steppes

With the Olmecs

In Oblieng

With fox-fur sandals

Drinking moon milk

Devouring owls

Being a corpse

Enduring this short death.

Sleep not.