This Is How I Feel....03:28 May 29 2005
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It hurts so bad,
I'm not sure why,
I feel as if,
I want to die.
But then I don't,
And for one thing,
It's worth the wait,
Throughout this pain.
I want him here,
With me now,
I know it would help,
Though I'm not sure how.
I could feel his arms,
Holding me tight,
Whispering softly,
It'll be alright.
I know for a fact,
It's then I'll feel safe,
Warm and cozy,
Within his embrace.
But he's not here now,
Nowhere to see,
Only the darkness,
Which is blinding to me.
No warm arms,
To hold me tight,
Only cold emptiness,
On this sad night.
I wish I could,
At least hear his voice,
But it seems that I can't,
For he has no choice.
When I need to hear his words,
They are so far away,
Not here with me,
I have to wait a day.
It may not seem long,
But through this pain it does,
A slow, torturing echo,
Hurting just because.
I just need a hug,
That's all I plead,
Please, please, please,
I beg and beg of thee.
Holding myself tighter,
I merely cry my pleads to myself,
Staring at the wall,
And blankly at the shelf.
Slowly after rivers,
Of ever flowing tears,
The pain starts to leave me,
But still deep I hold a fear.
What if he leaves me?
Somehow we're torn apart?
Surely it would leave,
A rip through my heart.
Never could it be cured,
As I'm sure you know,
For it would surely crush,
My weak, pathetic soul.
I'm cold now and distant,
My feelings have gone to retreat,
Slowly I start to pull myself,
Back up on my feet.
The pain is gone for now,
As I begin to feel numb,
No more hurting feelings,
So welcomed in it comes.
I hope it doesn't stay,
I'm scared one day it will,
Worried I will stop,
All ableness to feel.
I hope that he still loves me,
I want to hear him say,
Trust in me to hold you close,
And make everything go away.
Because when he holds me close,
I feel like I could fly,
But when he's far away,
I feel like I could die.
(This poem isn't really that good. But I'm not gonna bother trying to fix it up or anything because I merely wrote it as a means to vent out my emotions.... Hope you like it anyway.)
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