MGTK03:38 Jul 08 2005
Times Read: 635
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I don't know why I loved him,
Or why I even care,
It's not like he was here for me,
Not anytime, or anywhere.
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It's obvious now,
It was all a lie,
It just makes me want,
To break down and cry.
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I knew it wasn't worth it,
I knew it was fake,
I just didn't want to let go,
I was scared I would break.
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Down my heart falls,
Tender and weak,
I feel numb now,
As I feel my defeat.
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Worried and scared,
As I watch my soul fall,
Ready to shatter,
Once and for all.
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In slow motion it goes,
It feels like a dream,
It hurts so bad,
I just want to scream.
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Right before it hits,
Somehow it stops,
Someone has caught it,
From it perilish drop.
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I look up with my eyes,
I see standing above,
The one who saved my life,
The one who holds my love.
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I know that he'll be here,
Always just for me,
I know that I can trust him,
Forever, in his arms, I'll be.
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End Note: My heart and soul wasn't actually caught and saved....it really did break... crumble... crush ...shatter ...smash ...whatever else you wanna call it... I don't really know if he does care or not... I don't think he does. He doesn't act like he does... I wonder if he was just using me? That's what someone told me... I hope it's not true. I think I'm gonna throw up.... God I'm depressed..... Shitfire.... Someone just stab me through the heart now. *sighs* I'll just drown in my own tears and blood. That sounds fun. Hah... I loved him... I just wish he loved me back.... No hope now... I give up. I'm a failure, he doesn't seem to want me...or at least not the way I want him to. It just... sucks ya know? I wanna scream... but I don't have the strength... I'm so weak and powerless...... I feel dead. I'll stop rambling now. I'm so hopeless. So heartbroken. So... maybe I'm not pretty enough... It could be a factor. Or maybe I'm just too annoying...too hyper... Or maybe there's...a different girl. Ah...fuck it. I'm dead anyway.
...I hope noone reads this...
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COMMENTS
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TheDevilsHarlot
03:18 Feb 19 2009
Poor Jamie. I wish I could've saved her...But then you wouldn't have come around, Lilith....
YourDarkness
08:02 Feb 20 2009
Haha, I know, right? Maybe its for the best..