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Alone
22:35 Sep 04 2006
Times Read: 831

My life filled with peace and love

Joy unspeakable such rapture from the one whom my heart belongs



Enter Death



A cold sting from which I cannot recover

Warmth turns to chill

Life to Death

And companionship to emptiness



No one to keep me, my house now fills with the stale air of a silent night



As I go to sleep I notice the pale imprint of their body on the sheets

Yet they are gone



No one to hold me at night

No one to watch me sleep

No one for me to love



I awaken, the sun shining brightly

For a moment I hear a voice, soft and sweet

I turn

Then remember the funeral’s today



Stepping out onto the patio, birds singing, a breeze lifting my hair

My heart sinks, a wretched pain I feel as the knowledge of his passing tears deeper into me



Evening comes his body slips into the earth

I clench my stomach, I am alone



Never more shall I hear sweet loves call

Never again will I awaken to perfection



My soul convulses with pain

Why?

This poison slips into my veins burning my body

Tears streaming, alone

Without you, I fall



Depression consumes me

Thoughts, unabated plague me of death

Cold and calculating it leveled this human form

To bear the greatest fear of all

Being alone, without someone to care



A week has passed

His coffee cup still by the bed

The revolver in my right hand

A searing heat, a shattering sound

I fall consumed by this force onto my lover’s resting place



Alone I shall not be



Xzavier McInnes

J.B.R2322 #4

To Trust
07:24 Sep 03 2006
Times Read: 835

Soft and quietly I lay here

My body naked and shaking

You told me everything would be alright

I believed you



The cold, warmth of his hands running down my spine

“What’s going to happen” I ask

A silent whisper you say to me

“Be still”



Your arms encircle me

Crushing my weak self into submission

I feel so bare and alone

My heart screams out as his hands hold me tight



I try to move away

My back now being pulled into his direction

You push me up against the wall

I trusted you



Your eyes grab hold of my soul

Your hands cover my mouth

With the sound of a gentle air you say “Hush be still”



What is this burning I feel

My god make it stop

My body wreaked with pain

I convulse as you drive your hatred deeper into me



I can not scream

I dare not scream

Why, I thought you cared



You shove my face into the floor

My back bent

Your hands making me bleed

Your voice possessed by some demon

“This is what you deserve”

With calculating evil, you remove all innocents I once had



I feel your legs tense

Your breathing becomes shallow

Blood dripping from me



Its over



You toss me aside like a rag doll

You look at me with disgust

And say “Thanks”, then walk away



I feel so dirty

Such pain, no one should have to endure

I pull myself up covered in blood

I think “Why did I trust”





Xzavier McInnes

J.B.R2322 #3

Spinning Through the Vortex of Mind
06:26 Sep 02 2006
Times Read: 841

Spinning through the vortex of mind

Wondering through the endless nights

As stars wheeled overhead

My soul revealed



A palace lost to the ages

A crimson sea of blood

A history of battles long ago

Kings and Queens die at my feet

An Empire falls this night



Yesterday I was a god

Today a man

Knowledge beyond the years have I

And wealth to rival the Emperors of Rome

But what have I in this dark abyss



A once raging storm of fire

Now reduced to a flicker

Alone sitting on my throne of marble and gold

No company to keep

My throne room a bleak, barren wasteland of eternity

As darkness closes in around me

The Sun King, Emperor of the Stars

Now Waits



I wait for my time to come

I wait for the sun to set

I wait for the end of all

Alone am I this dark cold night

The last of a once great now ragged house



All I seek is a friendly face

To hold my hand and shield me from my demons

To sit with me as I draw my last breath from an empty well of life



Who will be with me this twilight

And regal me with the songs of past glories

The end is at hand and time is not sparing



Spinning though the vortex of mind

A whirlwind of thoughts

My soul, body and mind collide

Alone in my sunset



The noise of a thousand waterfalls fills the air

The horseman on his final ride

Someone please hear my call



As the spinning increases all collapses

The red, yellow, blue and gold of the sky at twilight

Colors mingle and memories fade

The last prick of a needle

My eyes close, the spinning stops, the noise fades

Darkness comes and night falls



Xzavier McInnes

J.B.R2322 #2

The Red Sun Rises
05:55 Sep 02 2006
Times Read: 843




Here I am, standing before you

Laying bare all that I have

The empty and weak have I to offer you

My empire of sand laid waste in the waters

To you I give



I built bastions of stone

A hollowed heart was my keep

Unto all was unknown, my throne

And now I weep

For time has caught me



Through the ages I have walked

Not knowing where to go

A mind shattered in the wake of the storm



Now my sins of long ago have found me

Locked in my high tower

I quiver like a frightened child



And now I am in the waning winters light

For the morning shall not come to me



To you I give my empire of sand

The midnight train delivering me to Gods hand



I have no desire for that sweetest dawn

My shallow and empty self made bare

I tried to conceal my soul in my tower of iron



Reaching out to the world was never a thought

Learned am I in the pain and war others bring



Alone and desolate my past has been

The song of love and of love lost never swept across my sun parched tongue

Many have sought refuge in the protection of my walls

But few, any, do I recall have stayed beyond the dawn



Now worn thin and bare by wind, sand, water, time and war

I lay myself out to you



I try to feel

But only pain do I perceive

I began a master of man

And leave a broken, stained mark upon the flesh of those whom I have known



Should I terry, you will bleed

My empire of fleeting sand

Give I to you



My tarnished crown now falls

The ocean in the ensuing storm

Claims my throne

Every one I know has left

For me to defeat this enemy

But what weapon can I forge

To fight myself



As lightning crashes round about me

And my tower of iron now crumbles

Alone I stand an island of barren ruin

I gave you my empire

Why didn’t you take it for safe keeping



So as the wave will never end, the universe shall go on without me.

Look the red sun rises.



Xzavier McInnes

J.B.R2322 #1