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Hello. This is my first entry and I hope this one will work out better than just writing in some comp book and then losing it and finding it years later. Anyway, Im sitting here on IMVU in a chat room with my Avi that looks like a stripper. Im talking to some pretty awesome people. Mostly just this girl named Prank. Me and her are talking about movies and clips on youtube. Mom called tonight. I was actually kind of happy to hear from her tonight. There are sometimes when she calls when I dont want to talk to her cause the thoughts of what happened and what its putting the family through makes me so emotional and when I get emotional I dont want to talk to anyone other than myself, lil sis, or friends online. I dont think anyone knows what I am going through in my family. All they see is a young adult just losing her mom for a couple of years and having to help out the family, but in reality its an 18 year old ,who only has sex with women so no chance of being preggo, having to take her little sister as her daughter. Ever since they took mom I have had to almost completely give up my weekends so I can help take care of my lil sis. I havent been able to go to my favorite show Rocky Horror Picture Show because of it. And that show is only once a month at midnight. Dont get me wrong I love my sister and I would do anything in the world for her just to make her happy but I deserve a life too. I mean shit I just turned 18 and Im already like a teen mom. Just without the whole penis part. My step-father works all weekend so that leaves me, lil sis, and my grandmother. I love spending time with all of us together but every once and while I want some me time when I can go to a show and things like that and not have to worry about weither lil sis is going to bed at the right time. Everytime I think like that it makes me feel so horrible. But then I also think that I deserve that time. Its so complicated. My friends dont understand either. Some of my friends either are regular high schoolers or they are teen moms themselves. I dont know. Im exausted now. I think I might go to bed now... Well I probably will come back and write more on this when I wake up again. So good night *morning*.