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From childhood's hour I have not been

As others were -- I have not seen

As others saw -- I could not bring

My passions from a common spring --

From the same source I have not taken

My sorrow -- I could not awaken

My heart to joy at the same tone --

And all I lov'd -- I lov'd alone --

Then -- in my childhood -- in the dawn

Of a most stormy life -- was drawn

From ev'ry depth of good and ill

The mystery which binds me still --

From the torrent, or the fountain --

From the red cliff of the mountain --

From the sun that 'round me roll'd

In its autumn tint of gold --

From the lightning in the sky

As it pass'd me flying by --

From the thunder, and the storm --

And the cloud that took the form

(When the rest of Heaven was blue)

Of a demon in my view --

You caress my cheek, a place where you are so close to my eyes, my face, my nose, my hair, my ears: a very personal spot. I start to cry. I feel your hand upon my cheek, your thumb trailing under my eye to collect the tears that escape. I can feel the warmth of your hand pressing against that cold spot on my face. It warms me - it gives me comfort. Your fingers lace around my hair and play with it as you rub my cheek. I felt you slowly starting to take your hand away. I hold it in place and give you a small look: please keep it there. Its the only spot that you can touch that will calm me down and put me at ease... "

Family.

That word is supposed to mean something, like love, caring, people you can rely on to stand by you through thick and thin, always be there for each other.

It doesn't mean backstabbing, lies, fighting, turning on one another, outcast one from another.



Family VS Me.

Im the outcast, the one always judged, the one always wrong.

I can never do right by views of my family. Apperently change is a bad thing, one to be judged as wrong and unnatural. One that always has the world agaisnt her, never have a relief, never know peace. never be happy til day she dies.

All she has on her side, is her father and husband to help fight back the tears.



This is not family.