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i don't know what this feeling is but all i know is it makes me the happiest person alive. I feel real for the first time. I feel like everythings okay. Like nothing will get in the way. I just wish that i had my baby here with me to tell me what he feels for me but i don't it makes me sad but i also know i'm growing fonder to him and that i know this love is real. We share the most amazing time together it's like nothing i ever want to let go. I know i'm in love with him because my heart is wanting him so bad and it hurts to even know when i will even get to see him. I just wish that love didn't hurt but now that i know what love really feels like i can tell that this is real and i'm not just thinking that i love him cuz i know for a fact that the love for him will never go away because he has to most special place in my heart. He keeps me coming back and loving him more than the next day. I know i'm not crazy because if i was then i should have went to a mental home a while ago but i love him with every part of me and that is all i can ever do is love him now. I don't ever want to lose him because our bond together is so strong it can conquer the world that we live in. It makes me greatful that i know he truly loves me and would give me the sun and the moon to make me happy. I never felt this before in my life and i'm happy that it's with him that i'm feeling it for. It makes it better because he's also my missing half the one i've been looking for and finally found. I just can't believe it happened to me and that he loves me and wants to live his life with me!!!!!

So much stuff to do yet have no idea what i want to do lol. i just wish some people would be them selves and let go of their doubts on themselves and just let your self show you the way. It's not hard as long as your willing to show that you are not afraid.

Today is an interest day to finally have time to sit back and relax but having to deal with problems can also be problems but once you learn to deal with it you should be as good as new right? Or not? I don't know what to really say all i know is that i have mixed emotions today. It makes me feel a little weird but i know that if i try i can make it through this mess. But for now i'm going to just live with what i have and believe everything will get better soon. :)

You know the feeling when you finally acomplished something and your proud of it i'm in that mood right now i've never been so happy in my entire life.

I scared for her. She's living in hell, she could die and nobody would know. HELP ME???? I want her to leave that house if you want to save a life and protect someone from harm write below plz.. I love her to death she is like my lil sister think of it like that what would you do.

When the moon rises my soul rises and i spirit lifts to the skies and screams to the world your the only one i love the only one i need.

I have made the choice to change myself but do i know what i want. I can't do it for anyone but me. I wish life would get easier but with jobs the way it is you can only take wat you get.

I feel all wrong yet so right so what is that suppose to mean???

So my moments are weird. But i can't seem to get ahold of myself to really let go. But how bad is it that my headache won't ever go away. It's killing me becuz i hate it. I think it's probably from all the stress i have to go through but really it's one of the worst things i have to deal with but i'm trying to make it through the day so i can just get to bed and just sleep away all the pain from what the day was.

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Oceanne
01:50 May 08 2010

Have you by chance checked for elf in your area? Its something you might want to look into.Hope you feel better.

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It’s crazy to think that something could kill me when it was nothing. I hate not knowing what’s going to happen. I guess I’m just in love with you. It scares me because I don’t know what I am going to do without you. You’re just my world at this point. I don’t know what’s going to happen. I’m sorry for acting the way I did. I love you more then anything and I would rather be dead then go through what I went through that night or even think about going through that again. It killed me to the point where I felt there was a hole in my chest. I wanted to be in a place where nobody can find me but I knew that wouldn’t happen so I just went through the pain of everything that happened. I must be crazy for falling for a guy that’s right beside me but I am.

I can never choose what will be there for me when I need it but I can’t choose to rely on nothing that is sitting here in the dark. It’s not always the same but yet it will be there as I used to be…I never can say I’m gone but I will never choose to think of what will happen to me…







As I look here today I seen the darkness surround my soul, it put shame to me to where I couldn’t stand it so I will never be able to speak of what I can’t see in the light ever again. The sun can’t warm my soul but it can warm my skin it brings some peace but never shows what could be…I’m not going to wait for another light to shine down on me because it’s something it won’t ever be the same.









The fire inside me wants to kill the voice that won’t shut up and annoys me to no end.

The drama in life is so stupid i mean really if you love each other forget about the dang past and kiss and make up. I love yall but seriously you act like your seven all over again. Friends can be a handful but you have to love them and just smile and forget about what happens Why do couples feel it's nessessary to sit there and act like there 7 all over again?

Idk it's really weird becuz life is happening like a caotic place and i can't deal with it. IT's just crazy first sum1 dies then fights like no other. What's GOING ON!

Life get's pretty exciting at times but then you realize how much danger you could be in. What about you ever had to deal with a dangerous at?