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Life just seems crazy and i don't know what to do at times but all i can do is sit there and hope for the best. Even though as life gets crazy at times i'll still know that life will be what it wants to be or what it will have to be. I can't change what the past was but i can always change what my future might be.

I'm always there to have peoples backs but once in a while i wish i could have time where people just treat me better than they have. My life has been as complicated as can get and it's something i wish i could get rid of but i can so it makes it really hard to deal with.

I fight against the world in order to stay strong. I don't want anyone to know i am weaker than i need to be. I'll prove the world is more then just muscles and games. I'll show life is about loving and giving and just being who you are. You don't like me that's ur fault because everyone has their own opinion of me. I won't change because i'm one of a kind and a person you can't stand to miss out on in knowing. I've also been known to make people miss me and never find anyone like me. I'll just be the one you'll always have in the back of your head. But don't think i'm just full of myself because i'm not. I know i'm not perfect i'm not even close i've done so many things that i'm not proud of but i just shrug it off and move on because life is about making mistakes and just trying to make the future better than how you acted before. Sometimes all it takes is a little step forward and pull ur past to the side to realize where you stand and how far you will go.

Even as everyday goes by i still seemed to find something wrong like i can't explain it's just crazy but i deal with it just like i do everything else. But even as i still fight for what i want i still have to do everything i don't really want to because that is life as we know it. I know it's horrible at times but the way you deal with it says more than anything in the whole world.

Sometimes i don't get people when they want to act all cool what's the point why would you want to become a fake instead of urself. Is it just that they feel insecure about them selves or wat it is really annoying how they rather be someone else instead of who they were ment to be. Why change the beauty of life and make it into something it's not when you can embrace life for its mistakes and live life like it's ment to be.

Little things interest me while i'm riding away with the wind in my hair and the world at my feet but my next step is no where to be found. I have no idea where i should go but then it kills me to have to watch the people slowly die with nothing to do except day dream.

It's a weird feeling you get when you love someone isn't it? But have you ever thought when someone breaks up with you becuz it becomes dangerous and deathly. I've been there and i hated it it's horrible becuz u cry and you just hate it with a passion. Who all here has felt that?

Today was probably the worst day just because i felt so lonely it practically killed me. I just will never get a break will i? It kills me when things don't ever just give me a break and my life goes down the tube with the rest of things. The only thing i don't want go down the tube is my dancing dream i would be nothing if i ever lost that. But i have to admit for the most part that i'm okay once i'm in the arms of someone i love. He makes me feel so protected and loved and i can just feel the emotion between us and i have to admit it's the best feeling i have ever felt before. I also love the feeling i get when i'm around him it's like this butterfly feeling that you can't really explain but it's great.

As the wind blows, my hair brushes against my face and it greets me with a warm gust against my skin. It's like an electric shock that ends up warming the emptiness that i can't seem to fill up it ends up making me happy yet sad because i know something is missing but i just can't seem to figure out what it is exactly. I just can't believe that i've let this emptiness open for so long it kills me to watch people walk around all happy cuz i know i'll never have that happiness again because of what's happened in my past. That doesn't help either because it just creates a bigger hole that i can't seem to fill.

The grasp of the night carries me like i was dying in a engulfed sea of nothing. It's kept me away from so many things that i can't even begin were to start. The grasp no longer will ever have a hold of me. I'll run away as far as i can until i can never see the past again.

no matter how much you go through life you'll always find sumthing that could get you into trouble so wat are you suppose to do? It's a tough question to really answer but like everyone else says you need to follow your gut because it will really tell you wat's important and what's not. I love life just for the simple fact that i can show the world what i have to offer here it's a great place all you have to do is find ur spot in this world and achieve your goal and you can go so far