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This world so broken to me,

This life so filled with pain,

Those people who just need to be,

Harsh and rude for their own Personal gain.



To the world I am nothing,

But for another girl with Black in her hair,

To much Black and not enough sun,

The kind of girl they should never dare.



To my parents I am a shadow,

More black lipstick and dark cloths on,

Painting on the mask again,

Hoping it will make the pain gone.



To my own reflection I can see the truth,

The black lips and tear stained eye's,

Reflect my soul so broken and shadowed,

Breaking pieces away that die.



To him I could be so much more,

Wipe the black from my lips my dear,

Kiss me deep and know this love is true,

Open my eyes to make everything clear.



But Then I wake So alone,

He was just a dream again,

I'll just Paint on my mask once more,

And Wait in fear for this day to begin.



The tears will fall again,

Inside I'll be so broken,

Never let it show,

I'm being smothered in conformity I am Chokin!!!!



Good bye family and friends,

You won't have to deal with me,

And goodbye to him whoever he is,

I can't keep living like this... Save me......

For all those lonely Nights,

When you sat and cried,

When all your life came crashing down,

And inside you finally died.



I am the Breath that brings you back to life,

I am the tear on your cheek Thats show all your strife,

I am the blood that flows in your veins to keep you strong,

I am the words in your mouth admiting when you are wrong,

I am the Darkness Surrounding you with love,

I am the loving soul that will never judge!



How does one explain what does not make sence?

When all one can do is simply say my heart hurts and wipe their eyes.......

Girls like me do not cry....

How could I ever explain it to you other than to say that my heart is only half and that half is broken and bleeding out.....

How could you ever understand that the only thing I have left in this world is the pain.....

How can you understand that your words cut deeper than any knife......

How could anyone understand that your words are my life........



How can I help you to see that I love you...

No matter if you tell me to or not.......?

If I was walking alone on a beach,

I'd find a dirty mistreated lamp

I'd clean it off and make it shine,

The Genie would come, 3 Wishes of mine.



He'd give me 3 wishes to spend on me,

It's no secret at all,

What my 3 wishes would be,

Because it was a hard fall.



My first wish would come as no surprise,

Simple but Pure as I try,

I'd wish simply for Angel eye's,

To see past every lie.



My second wish is plain to see,

Harder but All I really want,

A love so true to last forever, For me,

Cuz love is all I really want.



My third wish Is harder to do,

Cuz it's complicated you see,

I'd wish that my love could be Only you,

Loving, Wanting, and wishing for me.



But I won't get any of those,

And it Breaks my heart,

Cuz everybody know's,

That I'm crazy for you...



But Wishes are dreams,

And Wishes aren't true,

And it hurt's me to see,

Her talking to you....



If I had one wish to wish on something true,

I'd wish,

I'd wish,

I'd wish,

Simply for you...............