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i have seen my end over and over .

just to wake in a disapointed state of mind.

for all i have seen is still locked in my sleeping mind.

the night will soon arrive when "he"will finaly find.

the path to what i tried to leave behind.

I know I must be here somewhere.

the more i try to find somewhere.

the more i lose of myself.

how much of your soul can one lose?.

before their is no self to find.

only the evil empty hollow shell will be left!!

Why am i still here it's beyond me i'm on borrowed time .

so long ago i gave up my soul to this world .

yet it has faild to pay out its end of the deal.

i know of nothing else to do but sit back and let the world pass by. eons have seemed to pass and yet i still waint.

oh why has this place forsaken me!!!!

what have i done to it .

intolerance is all it holds dear.

maybe i'm not seeing it so clear.

the evil fester inside of me spill out on the paths of others.

hated i have become even i can't stand to be me.

Do you know or even care.

how the things that you and i have done.

done to one another.

done to others.

how these thing can never be undone.

these things we have said.

said to one another and to others .

the things we have ,the things we have built,the things we have destroyed.

do you know or even care.

care that these things are done,unchangeable.

I KNOW .

i see how i'v changed things,people,and myself.

i am no longer the person i wanted to be.

i'm not sure i was ever even that person to begin

with.

DO YOU KNOW ?

darkness in my soul

anger,hate,fear these are the only things i have left

anger at myself for what i have allowed my life to become.

hate towards the ones that have tried to force their will upon mine.

fear for what has become the monster that is in my soul.

to all that have come befor me ,i would like to say thanks for fucking the world up in such a damaged way.

to all that come after me i would dare to say ,hey man i found this shithole world this way.

HOW MUCH ARE WE TO ENDURE?

THE HATE AND FLAWS OF OTHERS.

HOW MUCH CAN WE TAKE?

WHO IS TO SAY.

IT'S ONLY A MATTER OF TIME.

ONLY A SHORT WHILE!!

A LITTEL LONGER KEEP PUSHING ME!!

WHEN THAT TIME COMES.

THE TIME WHEN YOU PUSHED TOO HARD TOO MANY TIMES.

THE FLAWS OF THE OTHERS WILL SHOW IN ME !!

THE HATE WILL EAT THROUGH ME !

THEN WE WILL FIND OUT .

FIND OUT JUST HOW MUCH.

HOW MUCH YOU CAN TAKE!!!!!