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I made a pyramid and everything! I guess it didn't have time to sit long enough. Hopefully it's sitting long enough on the sales I need to get in tomorrow to get a commission check. Pleeeaasee!!

I wrote 3 sales today! I'm only $250 away from my $5,000 seat charge. Commission range yeah!



Sam is sleeping- mad at me over dinner because as usual he doesn't want or like whatever I make. No matter what, it's always "do you have something else?" Teenagers! It reminds me of the difficult old people I used to wait on at Flakowitz. (not that I didn't like them- I did, it's just they knew how to make themselves difficult).



Luis is being good and calling me.

I woke up at 5:00 this morning witha headache and lay there awake until I decided I couldn't get back to sleep.



Up while it's still dark and out to 7/11 for coffee and BC Powders. I think I'll sign off for awhile and nap if I can.

I see in MBK's journal that they are getting a dog soon. I want a dog! It's been years since we had one. Now a dog is good company.

Not that that's bad- I love it here.



This is the second day I've made it without calling Luis. I think I'm doing great. I can't change anything anyway- that would be up to him. Of course, I wish he would make those changes, but wishing and happening are two different things. I just have to let him go for good and not sit and wish for something that will not happen. That's reality. I'm not going to continue as it's been.



At least it's a rainy day. That's a good thing!



Sam ( my son )- still sleeping. I wonder how long he stayed up last night?

It's 11:00. No phone call. Why can't I take a hint? Good night.

I bet he's not going to call at all again tonight.

and all is well. My delusional happiness can last a little while longer. He said he will call me later. I'm 43 and I still can't control my feelings. Life is good.

Here I sit with no phone call again. Said he'd call last night and then didn't answer his phone. I GUESS THAT'S THAT THEN.



Nothing could piss me off more than not being spoken to. I'd rather stand and have a screaming match.

My son is now here on the rave. ( One of my two sons ). I'm glad you crossed over.



Well it's going to be a mad tight fisted week. I'll be living for Friday!