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Today is a new day, the first day of the rest of my life and it feels pretty good. I know it sounds cliche but that's they way I feel today.

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cadrewolf
20:51 Dec 10 2008

Wish I could say the same.

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BloodThirstyLips817
20:58 Dec 10 2008

You hold on to that feeling Wolvie & always remember it. I am proud of you.

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my previous entry detailing my side of a conflict between myself and another member that some of you may have read "just to set the record straight

00:56:09 - Dec 08 2008" has been made private at the recommendation of a sentoran if you have any questions about this please send me a private message.

I am VERY concerned as to whether I should be allowed to stay at home unsupervised because of my memory issues any more. For the second time this year I came very close to burning our house down. The first time was several months ago I forgot what I was doing and walked away from the stove with food cooking, I quit cooking ever since that. Today I was getting our wood stove going for the day and forgot that I left all the vents open allowing excessive draft once the fire caught. The flue temperature was over 900F that's more than 300F beyond what is safe. If I hadn't noticed an odd odor I probably wouldn't be typing this now. Even with the pain that I feel I have a hard time remembering even to take my pain pills much less my other meds. I'm used to being someone that takes care of things for myself and others. The thought of not being able to even care for myself scares the hell out of me. I've always been kind of an adrenaline junkie so I'm not real used to being scared either. My long term memory seems to be for the most part intact. My short term memory is very intermittent at best. Sometimes it's like the information is there but I can't access it when I need to. Other times it's like it was never there at all. Occasionally it works fine. There doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason as to when it does or doesn't work. At my last doctor visit when the nurse was leaving after the usual things the nurse does before the doctor comes in I asked her if she was going to take my vital signs like they normally do. She then informed me that she already had when she first came in but I have no recollection of it even still, yet I can remember this incident. Some days I have a hard time remembering even things I have to do every day. It's getting to the point that I'm having to develop OCD to make sure I do routine daily tasks. For example when it comes to taking care of our animals I have to make a point of doing things in an exact and precise same way to even have a chance at remembering to do everything involved with taking care of them. With 16 animals it's important that all of them get taken care of. If my gf didn't remind me every day I know I would forget, hell I forget to feed myself a lot. When I do remember to eat more often than not it's out boredom rather than actually thinking I need to eat. *sigh*

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Xzavier
04:57 Dec 03 2008

I've nearly burnt my house down twice as well and the same for forgetting to eat. It can be a very scary thing when you are aware that you're memory is slipping. I'd talk it over with your gf, doctors and any other close person, be frank and honest. Don't be afraid to share your emotions, anger of the situation etc. It's not the end of things however and with good support you can take this journey and continue to have the best quality of life you're able to and not be alone.

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Sinora
08:48 Dec 03 2008

I call my memory issues...mga > mind gone away. Once you find a way to deal with it, be it establishing a routine or writing things down on a list, just do what works best for you.



Please try not to worry about it, I say this because my friend and I both have this problem, and she worries and gets angry, I laugh at myself and just take each day as it comes.



The result is, my friend is in a much worse state than me. *hugs*.

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no matter what happens between brothers they're still brothers, i miss my brother