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once again i am at my deeps of hell

why did this happen again

the finger points at me

for more again when the shadow lurks



do i deserve it i don;t know

do i need i know i don;t

or do i thrive on it

the feeling that makes pain to me happy



life is what

a mystery

a game

or just plain bullshit



but when you know that does this up the anti

and make you search harder for what ever you

want, to hold close, show to others

but does this work



for right at this point i have hit

not once twice but more then three

a feeling i even would only wish apon

god him self, to know what he has done



if he is there and around he has

answers to own up to

and questions that he must justify

for his salvation was not for him self

or us, no it try and put him above us



love does not exsist he knew this

what we call love is just a

amicable relationship

between two people



for this i do not cry

for what i cry

is to know that

what i give i get back not a one sided deal



do i ask to much

do i ask the wrong people

do i do i do i

i don;t know any more