It’s been 239 days but it feels more like that many years instead. I never would have imagined that I would find someone so incredible, form the kind of soul-bond we have, or feel a love this deep and accepting. The friend I have in you is so much more than I could have ever hoped or dreamed of finding. For so long I simply accepted that I would be alone. Yes, there would likely be people I would form some sort of bond with; and there were from time to time, but they never stayed. No one has ever kept their promises, been reliable, or shown that I could fully trust them. Now, here you are: kind, caring, deeply loving, protective, honorable, loyal, and above all, accepting. You know my darkest secrets and you’re still here. When I told you, you didn’t recoil in disgust, or tell me I was evil. You took a breath, thought for a moment, and then told me it was okay. You looked at it from a completely different perspective than anyone else ever had. You explained why you thought I did what I did and that it wasn’t my fault. That I was just reacting to a situation I had no control over. I have been through so much abuse, thought myself broken and shattered irreparably; but you picked up all the little pieces and like a kintsugi master, put me back together, teaching me to accept all of myself. The scars are there, still visible, but I do not hide them from myself or others.
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