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I think i did something ignorant and i feel like shit. I have been encountering a number of difficult problems and my life just is seemingly out of reach. I haven't any control.

I met a beautiful stranger, who captivated me from the very start. His thoughts are refreshing and astounding. His mind had me thinking of things i haven't myself ventured into. I almost felt as though, he had reached a state of enlightenment. Or if he hadn't, my rational mind couldn't help me to fully grasp his ideals, and his way of thought. He is a master of knowing things i thought i had an idea about. How very persumptious of me. After all i am a capricorn. I have such a hard ass disposition.

I have tried to meet this stranger of desire, and i failed horribly. I had so many things to talk about and ask him, but not a single nice thing came out. i guess i became shy! He has been the first out of a slew of males that could make me blush. I was dumbfounded by the way i interacted w/ him. I think he is sexy beyond my understanding. He has a mystery about him. And yet at the same time i fear him... he has such sexual power that i have never ventured into. Hes open with the thoughts of Sexuality and being intimate w/ someone. Plus he has a powerful ego, one i cannot just ignore. i Adore him Worship him, and most of all i want him, But he is an non- captive type. I sometimes wonder if hes ever been heart broken. i bet he has. But hes never had me. I hope sometime he reads this and he knows the type of impact hes left on me. If it even matters now...