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Its amazing every time I get into a situation, where it be work , vacations, going out with friends or family. In any given situation you could almost have that perfect situation and then you have that .1% that dic head to mess things up. I call that Mara as being a Buddhist. See this name sounds like a a guys name or a girls name. I find it to be interesting. Why am I writing this? I have to say that this is my time to vent. I'm not here to cry about anything, no reason for that but this will help me with my book.

I have been in so many situations like all of you and I just came out f one where we had no rent for almost a year, due to my hard work and the one guy I said I would help and the task was done he sh*t on after he got what wanted. Look I'm a person of many talents and legal is one of them. I have helped so many people. I was talking to my cousin and he is correct I was thinking it before he said it. He says Van you know the reasons why you get into so much sh*t is because your a do-gooder. I stopped and I thought about it and he is right.

So what do you do? Be an asshole and help no one. I can't just sit back and watch assholes take advantage of people who do not deserve it. Its like waiting that bigger kid beat up on the little kid and not help them. I mean come on. I feel like nowadays people loss the the will to fight now people have been conditioned to do nothing when they see resistance or conflicts in public. People are losing their fight response. Example: Watch some being robed and most people sit back in shock and just watch and most them even though everyone has a phone nowadays won't even call for help. They just keep walking and go for cover. Sad!

My favorite is the person who can't do for themselves so they manipulate others until they get what they want . Then when whatever task the manipulator was aiming for is complete then you see the real ugliness of that person come out, its never fails. This is were I say this is where Mara meaning devil where I come from show it ugly self. Have you ever seen a person walk up to you and say some fuc*k up sh*t and they 2 seconds later come back and act like they never even said anything to you. That is mara, its almost like their possessed and they have no recollection of their actions or the words they said.

I have delt with this so many times its ridicules and I have to say, I can see it coming from a mile away. I get tired of this sh*t, but what can you do? Nothing you just keep it rolling with the punches. Villainz This is why I say I'm a villain. This is the world we live in. Fu*k It!


thanks for letting me Vent

Van

Its been minute since I have been with you all!. Well, I'm Back! Vancora. Have you ever had one of those days? Where good shit and bad shit happens at the same time or day? Well I its liKe when one good thing happens in your life and the same day another incident happens that cancels out the good incident that took place in your day.

My whole month has been like this, I'm not complaining. I'm just like universe WTF. So I'm writing this to see if any you have been experiencing the same universal effect. If you comment on this post. Like the band KORN the one of their songs the lead singer Jonathan uses a line in one of songs "The gods are making fun of me". It feels like that for me f*ck it I say. Its just another day on the playground. Well I have a saying for my post this day "When one door closes another one opens" this is just a universal law.


Well I work for the city of San Francisco and I help the elderly and I was my first client out of 4 that I have. Well this is about my first client.Her name is Marsha she was by herself meaning no family supporting her. So when I first met her she asked me for help after few visits at my work, She stated to me that no one would help her with these two creeps as she put it that lives in her house. Well I always love a good asshole challenge, mean going up against two assholes and trying to see who can be the biggest asshole, and who can win the challenge. Lol!

The point of this post that "Breaking Even"

I have been working working Marsha for a year now and after our journey. In the beginning I took her to do this that she did not get to experience in San Francisco. We went for walks and I took her places to eat that she was not able to go to in the 30 years of time she lived here. We had a great time! The more time we spent the more her mind started slip. Yeah, I know dementia rapidly stared to take over mind at rapid spreading rate. I have never experienced this before and I a pretty strong guy emotionally, but this was next level.

So one day I had she just could't remember who I it was like I was erased. Fuck! Right! It messed me up I'm not gonna lie, but we have to keep going, Right. So I took some time to myself to come back into myself and then I realised that this is the job and times its gonna feel personal. So Marsha was put in a home, but I got rid of creeps and saved her from being evicted and being thrown in the streets, she wouldn't make it very long on the streets having dementia at her age 59. She was not just my biggest client, but also a good friend who started as a client. She was biggest paying client, after her departure another client pops up to take her place with just the right amout of hours for me too keep going.

Universe is a trip!