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well, we almost made it to ten months... im sorry i had to break his heart the night before our ten month anniversary, but i guess it had to be done. i wonder if he truely understands why i did it... i've tried explaining the best i could, i was never very good at verbalizing things, this he knows, but i did my best. he just never really listened. he says that im the love of his life and that hes never felt so strongly about another person. i will admit that i too had these feeling for him... but faded within time. i will always love him, to a extent, and i will always care about him. it just shouldnt have to be so hard. i uderstand that you cant have love witout pain... but what if theres more pain then there is love? and more tears than there is kisses? it was a constant struggle, a constant fight. it shouldnt be that way. we will never be what each of us wants... we can never truely change, just cover up. we expected too much of eachoter. im tired of trying so hard. its better this way, for the both of us. we need time to be alone, or spent apart. it kills me to have to say this. i still have feelings for him and either way, my heart is hurting. if im with him - its a heartache. if im without him - its a heartache. it will take some time to heal, and i know i will miss him... but its time to let go.





"Difficile est longum subito deponere amorem."