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dearest journal,



today i learned i wish the male population would wither away sometimes..

long story short i've known this guy for going on 13 years. During the last few months he has saud th following

1) i love you

2) i want to be with you

& 3) i wish you'd go with me



well i asked him out today and know what i got? i got a list of stuff like Umm , i dunno , and i just want to be single for a while.. im tired of having my heart ripped out , chewed on and handed back to me on a fucking fork! ok i dotn think i can do much more caring with the fragments of the heart i once had. im tired of the pain adn the loneliness of this life and taking pills isnt helping and neither is cutting or drinking so i dont know what to do anymore

*sigh* being of the female part of this speices can tend to suck.. mainly when your trying to make a great impression for a fellow blood drinker and the unneeded happens but thats beside the point all that i need to say is that it tends to suck being a female but i must go now fare well to you all till i return

i hvent been here in such a long time..it feels good to return finaly... my reasoning is put as simple as this i have divorced parents so i must split my summer between them so i may bit be on alot.. but im shure i will check in everyso often ..well untill i write again farewell