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I wirte in thee agani.. i sit here at school with nothing to do.. bored to death.. nothing to o but listen to those around me .... the conversations are meaningless.. mostly about 4/20.. what an impecable day ..a day for pathetic people to smoke an illeagal drug.. how stupid... the worst idea ever.. they smoke it eveyday.. but this is a day picked out for what reason??? i dont understand that and gossip is all i hear .. rumors and reminising of the past... my past i wish not think about.. it is not one of happiness nor joy.. but full of pain and anger... farewell for now my fellow beings

As of lately life seems more fun .. watching violence and blood spill form these pitiful beings has become a pass time of mine.. its amusing to watch a race of creatures killing each other.. its like watching a pack of rabid power hungry dags fighting over a small scrap of meat... what ever happened to the sophistication these beings used to have? It probably went down the drain along with everything else... And its pitiful to see them bicker over a single thing such as lind.. theres plenty for everyone get over your egos people..

once in a while life need to just be squeezed from the stupid people in the world...their primitive ways make me sick, only out there to pick and push peoples buttons..well they are all pushing the right buttons on me... one girl already learned that Ryne's wraith isnt something you wanna mess with.. she about lost her life lat monday... i thought she would spread the word that im not so fragile little girl o be pushed around.. but she hasn't.. i guess i'll have to show them myself wha Ryne can do tho their pitiful little world... they can run all the want.. but they will not be shielded from Ryne.. she is keen and cunning... she will search them out and make thm beg for their life....but i must leave now...and put a stop to all this primitive actions from others. farewell for now..

yet again i sit here thinking my deep thoughts, wondering how much more i can take before i spill the blood of another. my darker side is comeing closer and closer to the surface. i have named this deep dark side Ryne, for its as if i have more than one soul living within. Ryne is ever so slowly working her way out. i try so hard not to let her release herslef on these foolish mortals. they wouldnt know what to do if she ever got out.. but yet again i think that releasing her would show them all im not what i seem on the out side.. im not a small fragile girl, but a strong blood thirsty demon waiting to rage forth her revenge for all that they have done to her. and her friend memnock. i believe that there is only one way to find out if these pitiful creatures that walk this plain can handle her. and that is to let her rage and get her revenge. But how to make them see it is not i who has done this it is them, their disgusting mortal minds that has feed her flame. that will soon comsume me and all around me. little to their knowledge , to their puny minds , do they know she feeds off their energies like a whirl pool of phcyic feeligns and thought.. she know them all too well for them to even imagine. but soon ,soon they will know the wraith that comes from ryne and raven will be no more.

so i end by saying R.I.P raven, ryne has taken over.

life is pointless we all live to hurt or be hurt by those we trust and love.. i have the hard part of breakng a girls haert that i like to be with the one i think im in love with .. but what if i do worng? and the other isnt worth it like i thought she was? what then? i cant go back and repent what i have done to her.. i could ask for her forgivness but will that be enough? she wont look at me the same after this.. but i guess life is about taking risks. some which your ready for others your not.. like this one thing i have to do.. i am not ready for... hurting those who are dear to me isnt something i like doing.. but i caould do it or tell the other she must wait..untill another time... god life is pointless its a bunch of twist and turns that all lead back to the begining .. its like walking around lost in the forest.. but the forest had an ending closer than life does.. or does it? who knows.. all i know is life sucks !

not much happening today...I am to go see my mother.. we are spending "quality time together -_-' i just want to stay locked up in my room ..but parents dont understand that, ! i dont like the sun .. im photogenic the sun makes me sick and 2) i dont like people staring at me... like they know what i am.. and how i act.... i want to stay away from the prying eyes of those who dont understand me.. which is everyone i dont need eyes on me all day

but it is a must to see my mother.. well shes here now i must go farewell for now

~raven~

my first days here have been blissful... everyone seems quite friendly.. so many messages and comments.. i wish to thank you all in helping me in this process.. and i wish to say thanks to all in the rave.. even if you havent talked to me yet .. im slowly getting back to everyone ..so if i havent gotten to you i apologize but i will soon