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Only In My Dreams
02:48 Aug 30 2005
Times Read: 619

Come to me now my beloved Neil

And hold me in your arms once again

Take away all of this suffering and loneliness

I am so tired... so much pain...

How I long to hear your sweet words

Telling me that everything will turn out okay

How your eyes would drown into mine

Making me aware that you are always here

That you would never leave my side

Oh my darling... hold me... never let me go...

I am so afraid of this path I'm treading

Wrap your strong arms around this frail body

And keep me warm against the cold bitter night

Shower me with tender kisses to help rid of this pain

Never leave me my love... I am so scared...

"We'll be okay.. my love, it's alright..

I'll stay with you forever..."

Angel In Chains
17:31 Aug 23 2005
Times Read: 627

As the cloak of night falls across the busy city streets

She peers out of her open window, gazing at the starry sky

Her entrancing beauty shines in the darkness around her

And her sultry voice echoes in the night

Like windchimes playing tag in the cool breeze

Yet her eyes... those soulful eyes... they are so sad...

How she yearns to soar up into the heavens

And touch the pale face of the moon

To know how sweet freedom is

Away from these heavy shackles of pain and solitude

Yet nobody knows of her aching loneliness

For she dares not cry out in longing nor shed a single tear

Less the hungry wolves come chasing after her

So in the shadows, she carries her invisible cross of heartbreak

And awaits the time someone comes to free her from her chains.

The Dark Side
08:34 Aug 17 2005
Times Read: 633

The darkness overtakes her at smoldering dusk

And the beast mockingly takes hold of her sanity

There is no mercy in her deep set eyes

And pain is tipped upon her bloodred fingernails

The subtle gothic make up frames her pallid face

And her cascading hair crowns her in full glory

In her gaze lies passionate hate for the world

Yet in her kiss, blissful heaven abides

Her warmth cloaks you like a welcome fur coat in winter

Yet her heart is frozen solid

It will take the blazing sun to thaw it out...

She extends her hands to you in welcome

But do you dare take it

Even if it means being consumed by her addictive mystery?

It takes a strong person to be her friend

A much more powerful man to love her...

She is far too fragile... too deadly to cradle

But oh to have her at your side when the night nears

Even the purring of cats cannot compare to her moans

And her subtle movements are scintillating to the senses

Her mind knows how to keep safe her precious heart

For she knows only one can hold the key to it

Until then, she shall feed without remorse

And set free all your demons within

Nothing would break you free from her spell

Unless she chooses to do so

So word to the wise, never tread on her domain

Her dark Eden is wonderous to behold for the innocent eye

Yet it means harsh torture for the preying soul

No man has the right to trespass here...

Except for the one she deems worthy to share her throne with.

Uncertainty
10:18 Aug 16 2005
Times Read: 636

Sometimes, we opt to look inside ourselves

And find that we are staring at trick mirrors

Silly, distorted, sometimes frightening images

Reflecting ourselves; we absorb these pictures

Often, locking them inside the secret corners of our mind

Many people feed off these insecurities and fears

And eventually add to the horrid visions about ourselves

Even if these images are not true.

Self-disillusion and masochistic views of who we are

Mocking ourselves to the limit where pain becomes unbearable

Wherein our souls get tainted with unwanted blood

And the unsuspecting spirit breaks down without notice...

It is in this moment, I retreat to my corner

Seeking solitude to cleanse myself of the impurities of others

And really begin to seriously meditate on what I am...

On who I am... On what reason am I here for.

In this bleak, lonely darkness filled with deafening silence

Can I begin to listen to the song that my heart sings

Without intrusion, without distortion

My vision slowly becomes clear and focused

From scratch, I rebuild and repaint the pictures I have

Making sure to add every bit of detail needed to improve the self

I let my tears wash off the un-needed sketches

And re-inforce the true images I've seen during this isolation

Only after I've painted the true masterpiece

Do I leave the darkness and become strong to face the light again.

When Evening Falls
10:11 Aug 16 2005
Times Read: 637

The lush twilight spreads like a satin cloak

Enveloping the hungry earth in eerie shadows

Minute lights begin to flicker in the night

From the open windows

And a chilling breeze is felt in the almost empty streets

Though most fear the darkness,

I embrace it with wild abandon

For I know in its damp yet motherly hug

I can be almost invisible to the world I so long to hide from

Where I can silently move without notice

And do the many secret things my heart longs for

I can soar the starry skies without a care

And dance in full glory under the pale moonlight

But as dawn starts to peek from the horizon

I awaken and conform to the surroundings around me

Concealing my innate nature from the unsuspecting crowd

And I take form as one of them...

But the heart knows each secret I keep in my soul

Silently awaiting for evening to fall once more.

My Neil... My Adam In My Dreams
07:49 Aug 08 2005
Times Read: 648

His handsomely pallid face haunts me as I lie alone at night

So frighteningly beautiful is his majestic form, so right

His arms so strong, so cold yet so familiar to me...

In his sweet kiss, at peace I've come to be

He takes me to flight far away past the seas...

Far beyond to a castle hidden by giant trees

I feel weak in his arms yet he seems not to mind

He knows he could never ever leave me behind

His heart may not beat... it's as dead as stone

But his heart is mine; and sweetly mine alone.

I ache to be with him; to be always by his side

Yet he warns me of the dangers that in darkness doth abides

I feel the longing in his eyes even in the absence of tears

With him beside me, I know there is nothing to fear

His passion is unbridled; his touch makes me burn

Each time we embrace, he only makes me more yearn

To feel him inside me, and to be one with his being

Gives more life to me; and shows me all meanings

But soon time becomes cruel to my passionate lover

Still in my mind, he'll be with me forever

He carries me back to my home once again

Then returns to his hiding place to where he can rest then

And the daylight brings tears to my eyes as I wake

For I remain human for his morality's sake

Still I will await till he proclaims to me "you're mine"

I will never leave him; to love him till the end of time.

Forever Damned
07:38 Aug 08 2005
Times Read: 649

Alabaster skin... deep set eyes...

Long ebony hair... pallid face...

She silently walks along bustling roads minding no one

Yet sees every soul that swiftly passes by...

Cloaked in darkness and enveloped in shadows

She is frightening beautiful to behold

Her sweet red lips promise heaven without even uttering a word

Yet her dark power lies not in such beauty alone

For when the moon rides high in all its splendor

Her haunting voice echoes in the twilight

She sings of love, and lust, and life

And then lures her willing prey into the night

She kills mercilessly without a thought...

She drinks her fill and still she dares

To glance upon his naked dying flesh

"He's not the one who's meant for me..."

So she roams the city streets once more again.

Lost but seeking; confused yet certain...

Death is but a gift to give; life is but a boon to take...

Time is but a sweet thing to waste.

To taste her passionate kiss is blissful drug...

To lust for her is madness beyond reality...

To love her is beyond all reason to live

For Death himself has chosen to be her groom.

Yet would you dare to steal her away?

Would you be strong enough to withstand her thirst?

To possess her body, mind, soul, and unbeating heart?

For if you do, this warning I give...

Dare not try to tempt your fragile fate in her deathly comforting arms

Less you not live to see the light of day

For she destroys without a care

Those who are not worthy with her life to share...

For eternity is her love's command...

And she won't surrender it till you're also damned.

A Vampire's Wish
07:27 Aug 08 2005
Times Read: 654

Hear my soft voice though I am so far away...

Know my secret thoughts and my strong desire to stay

For you have touched me in ways unimaginable

And I have fallen so deep in ways that seems misunderstandable

Do not shun away from me this present time

For secretly in my soul,

I want you to whisper to me "you're mine..."

Yet time is not on our side, my beloved dark knight

Still, this does not diminish my longing to have you near

To feel your smooth skin warm against my thigh

To press my mouth upon your parted lips

To never ever hear you say goodbye

Till fate will turn and smile our way

Utter happiness shall be felt in that very day

That we'd be together, me within your arms

Keeping me safe from all hate.. from pain.. from harm

Till then please stay with me and hold on tight

Let us keep each other sane in the passing of night

Till love shall burn in both our hearts

Till the dawn will come when we shall never know

How it hurts to be apart

Till the time we embrace and kiss and make love

Till our stars shine brightly together from the heavens above

Her Golden Cage
05:36 Aug 06 2005
Times Read: 658

Like a lovely sweet nightingale

She stays perfectly calm inside her golden cage

Her dark chestnut hair framing her tender face

Making her alluring eyes and luscious lips stand out

As if her mouth was inviting you to come with her to heaven

Without even uttering a word...

Her soulful eyes scream of passions told only in whispers

She is truly a sight to behold in such glory

Yet in the dead of night when all is silent

Her eyes sparkle with tears as she looks up at starry sky

And that is when she begins to softly sing her rhapsody

It is filled with both hope and heartache... love and hate...

In her mind, she doubts her own version of the truth about happiness

For what use are riches in this world

If one's own soul is bound in chains?

Yet what use is freedom if it meant being alone in the world?

Possession is a lesser evil than loneliness...

Confusion
10:48 Aug 05 2005
Times Read: 660

Oh sweet sorrowful echoes of yesterday that lingers in my head

Why must you torment me so on this cold night?

My fingers cannot cope with the words

That are wanting to be released from this dark consciousness

What peace is there in silence?

As I try to avoid the haunting melodies of months gone by

My heart begins to quiver in loneliness and longing

But the mind is merciless and takes command...

My walls reinforced with poisoned wires

And my towers reach up to the heavens above

Yet why is this happening?

What sense is there in being protected

When even those who want to love me and who I wish to love

Cannot even touch me?

If he reaches out to me and says he is mine...

Then my tragic Eden will re-awaken

And all will be bloody... sweet... and beautiful all at once in his return.